#empressintraining

thats true but its inconvenient dates like its the end of the month to the middle of the next month so i think it’d be hard to do that 

OMG! This is what I’ve been telling people a lot lately! Funny thing is that I’ve always seen my birthday or the 1st day of Gemini Season as the New Year, even as a child!☺ I will be 27 this year and I’m excited for all the opportunities awaiting me in my very near future! 26 has been a very, very trying time and I’m ready to let go off all chaos it has brought me. I’m ready to be my optmistic self again! I’m ready to be better than okay.🌈❤

LEMME TELL YOU ABOUT THE LAST 24 HOURS, OKAY. First off all I had to work a 14.5 hour day yesterday on four hours’ sleep, which was FINE (apart from spilling red wine down my top at the event I was working at) until the train stopped on the way back from Canterbury at some ridiculous hour at some station and wouldn’t start again because of an incident further down the line, which meant that when it did start moving again I’d missed my connection back to central London. Couple that with the fact that my next connection was late and the waiting room was closed and you’ll come to me waiting in the cold in Gravesend or Gillingham or somewhere beginning with a G for 40 minutes last night at 10ish before the next hour train home. I WAS SO COLD. I can’t maintain a steady body temperature at the best of times, and this was the worst time, so I shivered uncontrollably until I got home. THEN I had to go to an away day today with my management team at my boss’s house, and I got to the bus stop and my bus wasn’t even on the screen so it was going to be half an hour or something so I had to walk and get the train THEN, THEN I had to spend the entire day being bad tempered and grumpy because I was so tired and because we were restructuring MY JOB and it is very disheartening to have to break your own processes down and redo them all because it’s time for a revamp, because I already have to juggle ten million balls and now I have to do all of that and restructure all the balls AS THEY ARE IN THE AIR but that’s fine, because that’s not the worst bit. TODAY WAS THE DAY WHERE THE FACT I DON’T LIKE BEING HUGGED BY PEOPLE I DON’T PARTICULARLY LIKE WAS THE FOCUS OF EVERYONE’S JOY. HURRAH. So APPARENTLY this guy in another team doesn’t like being hugged and someone who didn’t notice that hugged him and he hated it and he complained to his manager. His manager then took it to the management board to be communicated to all the other heads to disseminate down through the teams (???) and my boss was all, “uh, why has this come to the management board? why are we talking about someone not liking being hugged at a management board?” and this guy’s head was all, “dunno, what else am I supposed to do about it?” then MY BOSS said, “Well, Melanie hates being hugged at work and you don’t see us discussing that at management board, do you?” SO ANYWAY they all then spent some time at management board discussing why and how I don’t like being touched (which is an exaggeration okay, I LOVE BEING HUGGED AND I LIKE BEING TOUCHED I just don’t like a) initiating it because I am REALLY SHY and don’t know if it will be appreciated and b) don’t like to ask for it when I need it and c) don’t like most of the people I work with enough to WANT TO HUG THEM because I am not actually proper friends with most of the people I work with and d) I am naturally predisposed to assume people don’t want to hug me and e) FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF someone come and hug me WHO ISN’T SOMEONE I WORK WITH) and I got told all of this today like it was supposed to be funny. Then someone else who is (I assume, but with appropriate evidence to suggest it’s true) 100% straight yelled BISEXUAL PEOPLE ARE ALL PROMISCUOUS because he knows I hate it and he was laughing with me except it didn’t feel like I was being laughed with. Then we discussed this leaving party I had to go to ten days ago where initially there were five people there including me and including this guy who I haven’t seen since he was temping for me and I didn’t give him the job he applied for and he was horrible to me and tremendously rude and walked out of the job giving me two hours’ notice and this was the first time we’d seen each other since and CLEARLY he still thought his behaviour was completely appropriate WHEN IT WASN’T. He was a DICK and time should have suggested that maybe he could stop being such a gigantic knobhead, but clearly it didn’t, but ANYWAY he gave me a limp handshake and then came around the table to hug and kiss me WHICH I DIDN’T WANT because he was SO RUDE TO ME and let me down professionally and I DON’T LIKE HIM and all of this was being texted to my boss by other people because it was REALLY FUNNY that I’d been awkwardly kissed in public when HA HA everyone knows I don’t like being hugged, LIKE NO ONE COULD UNDERSTAND THAT men who are HORRIBLE TO ME and let me down professionally and get angry with me when I’m alone with them in meeting rooms don’t get to come into my personal space months later and act like that’s fine. It is still hilarious to other people that I’d been kissed by this guy, BUT SURELY ONE OF YOU ON TUMBLR UNDERSTANDS WHY IT WAS SO HORRIBLE, RIGHT? It’s not just because it’s funny because HA HA I FLINCH FROM BEING TOUCHED HA HA so hilarious right. SO ANYWAY I got laughed at away for moving away from being hugged today because they were only doing it because it’s funny that I’m awkward about it but SURPRISE SURPRISE now I am more awkward about it than I was before HA HA so I finished this half empty bottle of wine.