The car ride had been silent as the grave, and yet Emil had remained stone-faced and composed during all of it. When they'd stopped at the motel, he'd checked his face in the rearview mirror. Still red on the side that his father had struck, with a thin cut from his wedding ring right over the cheekbone.
It didn't look good, but he concocted a story in case someone asked. No one did. The motel they'd stopped at was in a part of town where people didn't ask questions, and all the better for it. When they'd parked, Emil hadn't hesitated in heading into the front lobby, telling Era to wait for him. He was grateful, at least, that he'd had time to grab his wallet, and that he'd had a little cash on him. Enough to get a room for the night at least.
He'd made the appropriate small talk with the front desk clerk, and he was calm and collected. A lifetime spent compartmentalizing, of seeing text notifications on his mother's phone from men he didn't know and then sitting down for family dinners like nothing was amiss, of keeping people's secrets, of oh, no, just took a bad hit at fencing practice yesterday had made it an easy thing.
But as always, Erasmo was able to shake that away from him with a single gesture, to get a genuinely honest reaction. Just for a moment. Emil stiffened, ever so briefly, in Era's arms, before he relaxed.
"--Yeah," he said, shaking his head. "I'm fine."
It was the only thing he said before he pulled away, walking to the window and peeking through the blinds.
"We're going to need to ditch the car. The cops are going to be looking for it. And--ugh. Right. Our phones, we probably should get rid of those too. Can't use my cards, probably not smart to go tracking down an ATM right now either... I've got cash on me, but not too much." He sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. "This is all going to be on the news by morning, and then it's going to be even harder to move. We need to get out of town. I mean, fuck, I did just kill a senator--"
--his voice cracked, and in an instant, the spell was broken. Emil wavered, just slightly on his feet.
"I'm gonna be sick," he said abruptly, making quick, shaky steps towards the bathroom.