#emohour

20210321 - he talked about food again hehe. today he talks about salty ramyeon and how strong the salty taste is and asked the reader to try ramyeon from army lol. even you shared about salty ramyeon i still so happy ok thanks sungjin.

20210322 - he was blessing to eat in the army. maybe they serve full 5 meals course so he doesn’t have to worry from feeling hungry. and he said every single day passed quickly like blink of eyes. that means he is so happy in his army life ok im so glad again. and as usual he asked us to eat a well. ok sungjin i definitely eat 5 meals course like you.

today his team started to train outside, and its cold in his army base so i hope he can adapt well. also do physical test measurement and will start to do shooting training tomorrow. today he drinks banana milk too (ok cute tmi)

starting from this week, his 2-lines letter will be reduced from daily to mon,wed,fri,sat,sun only. 2 days will be reduced. its okay as long as we still get the update from you.

okay today finally we get to see his cute lil bald head with mask along with his squad members. he prolly the oldest among all members but he still looks so youthful, he eventually can pass as their friends. and before this his squad members called him DAY6 member now its upgraded to DAY6 main vocalist lols. they still called him DAY6 instead of his real name. but i could prefer them to call him yepeoseo hyung 😂

ok thanks for cute lge update bob see you again.

When am I going to stop comparing myself to others and just stop feeling jealous of the ground people stand on.....? I hate seeing my friends, anyone, strangers doing well and hearing my INNER thoughts THINK THAT and say “wow why arent you... like that?” like what the fuck who am i to be MAD at people I love’s success what kind of shit hole am i

i’m a fucking pit!! geezzzzus granted i dont ACT on the jealous but I hate the fact that’s fucking there

like levina

shut the fuck up

you piece of shit you NEED to be better than that

i have better days and then i just dont lol , i have days where all of it fucking collides and ITS JUST LIKE COME ON. I know I am not them. I will never be them. I should better myself not be another person because it’s never gonna fucking happen.

When is the hot burning sensation of not being able to see myself as /good enough/ going end?

When am I gonna stop seeing myself as second best and frankly just last resort in terms of friendship, family, and love lol? im sick of feeling needy and filled with doubt,I’m sick of being the one that’s afraid of being so shitty that I can’t find happiness in what clearly is a good life. When is that gonna happen lol. When can I actually not gaf??!! I’m afraid to let myself believe in the good because I hate being proven wrong, I hate having my low ass expectations of how good my life can get just fucking break the bottom of the barrel.

It’s half self deprecation, half self preservation because I know when I do cheer myself up, i just end up doubting everything like I can’t BELIEVE!! in good things LOL LIKE I TELL MYSELF I DO JUST CUZ IT HELPS FOR A MINUTE BUT I KNOW I HAVE A LOW THRESHOLD FOR DISAPPOINTMENT AND HEARTACHE OF WORLD SOooOO lol.

God, i’m just sick of disappointing myself with my own self hate, self doubt, self pity, it’s all just a flaming pile of the stupidest primal emotion that I have.

20210228 - sungjin is back on vlive. today he was doing vlive at hangang and we can see hes doing vlive from the sky still bright until streetlight was turned on hehe.

today he was surprised by the comeback news and he said whether the article is out or not. and he checked by himself and eventually confirmed it. he said they already done with mv filming, photoshoot, album recording and in procees to finish the album because it takes time.

he also shared that today is his dad’s birthday. happy birthday sungjin’s dad. he also shared that he used to won a photo contest and even will get scholarship if he pursue the study. sungjin is such an artistic guy, he has such a overflowing talent.

he told us he loves to read poetry book and write the poem. no wonder his afraid lyrics is full of poetic expression. and he shared to us that he plans to write the book in the future but day6 is his priority right now so his focus solely on day6 and his personal plan will be done later. what a selfless leader, day6 always come first sobs. and the thing that he wants to write the book, its so sungjin for me. he loves to read and write what a wonderful guy.

he also shared about the human relationship. based on his pov, he used to expect people give 100% as what he gives to the people but now he doesn’t want that greed and expect less than what he gives to ppl and dont scared to be hurt. and he told us that he wants to look good and kind to people eyes before, because he wants to look good in human relationship but now he doesn’t want that greed anymore. i should say thats such a character development. sungjin is such a raw and honest person. he shared his strong and vulnerability what a great person.

there is much more things he shared but at the end of vlive he asked us to eat meal deliciously and we will meet again later and he wants to meet us frequently. thanks sungjin for today’s vlive, see you later.

oh he recommended one of 5sos songs, high. lets enjoy. and i provide some scenery photo taken by sungjin.

20201111 - special day for me and myday. sungjin was doing vlive after a while. i was so shocked over his notification and i can’t believe he was doing vlive today.

he showed us how he’s been doing - exercise! thanks for letting us know. and what more shocking is he permed his hair haha. still cool though.

another tmi is his parents was coming to seoul on last sunday and monday to visit him. what a cute anecdote. oh hey this is his first time in his adult life to sleep on the bed without showering first and he woke up in triggered mode why he wouldnt wash before sleep and eventually wash all his bedsheet after that haha that clean guy.

another thing is he is practicing hard in singing and even its hard but he tried his best. good luck sungjin! he also doesn’t watch drama and movie because he is concentrating on his singing practice and exercise.

he also said he always went to that restaurant at busan until he knows the owner and the staffs. what a loyal customer you should be credited because of you that restaurant is trending at sokor heh.

he said that he’ll active on the twitter once day6 is fully on the track (when they comeback perhaps). and he said that he received the id and password for vlive account so he will do vlive whenever he wants. oh yeah sungjin lets get it.

he ended the vlive by saying bye bye with his signature hand wave. im so happy to watch him being active and back on the track and recovering well. he genuinely shared his wherebouts and that makes me emotional all over place. thanks sungjin for vlive. you really make my day 🤍

oh he recommended song by james arthur- empty space. lets listen to it 🤍

20201207- another vlive from park sungjin. thanks bob.

on the vlive he flexed his new nike glove and headband. from head to toe is nike brand and he wittily said nike should endorse him as ambassador 😆

he shared some new tmi like dowoon only wears underwear to sleep, he and short sleeves shirt and underwear, wonpil and silk pyjama and youngk and his fullset of pyjama. thanks for tmi haha.

he also very thankful for the best band performance award at MAMA 2020. he also awared that his afraid guide version already reached 1 mill views on yt and he thankful of that.

the comment asked him is it true he used to be called as go junpyo (lee minho character in tbof) and he said yes. his friends used to call him by that nickname hehe. handsome boy since 1993, no wonder being compare with other handsome guy.

he also shared his thought to get tattoo before but he said it doesn’t fit him and because of his philosophy that “live your life with how your body is given to you", he said he never get one.

and then he suddenly logged out but logged in back to say goodbye and doesn’t want myday to multitask because youngk’s broadcast was started. sungjin my best boiii 🤍

today my sungjin’s level of emotional is so overwhelming like i like him more and more.

jae discussed about day6’s vocal colour and each of them have different kind of vocal colour like jae is air kind of voice, sungjin is on raspy side, youngk the adlibs and falsetto, wonpil and nasally voice and dowoon and his deep voice.

something that jae shared about sungjin’s vocal colour is interesting. i know sungjin used to tell about this in his solo interview before but jae explained it more detail why sungjin changes his vocal technique.

originally he has very clear voice (watched his predebut video and you will know how clear his voice was) and because the management want to have signature voice among the group, he needs to train to make his voice more raspy and has that kind of rock vibe. eventually he trained and suceed. now, we can hear how raspy his voice is in day6 songs.

what more overwhelming is he needs to train his voice to become more raspy and at the same time learned how to play music instrument prior of 3 months debut. before this, he used to play cajon because of soft debut as acoustic band but because the management wants to create a rock band he changes to guitar instead.

he is a fast learner and the members even said so. how fast he learned the music instruments like cajon,guitar, drum, bass and even piano. his motto is really screams his personality so much “my way and my way”. he has his own way to figure and solve the problem.

i still remember how he appointed himself into duet song festival to promote day6 name into the public and he confidently dance even yeah its shameless for certain people (the mcs of weekly idol) but hey he nailed it anywhere. i love how confident and humble he is and how great as leader he is.

anyway there is more things i want to say about him but will keep in the next emo post later. but today i’m very emotional about his sacrification towards his band and thats so beautiful.

thanks park sungjin. i like you more and more.