to say I have lived twice wouldn't be so wrong over and over, I was taught and re-taught for all that i learnt was forgotten soon enough maybe that's why the wise men told to pray everyday Newly born when i opened my eyes, you were there observing just to make sure you recite over and over to me, years later the day you closed yours forever was nearer maybe I should've memorized how it was when you woke up from you sleep. yes, I was getting older but you were getting much older too I never got the feeling, for with each year i felt us getting closer too from grandchild to daughter and to friends, hopefully by the end of it maybe I should've written back to you, over post just like the older days.
I learnt civility, and with it controlling my emotions too i used to cry whenever as a baby and you would pick me up I still still cry in my commute every morning, but i don't see you I try to look for a sliver of you in every older person i talk to
I'll forever run after the car you drove I always turn look twice at the person who looks just like you i'll search for a sound that sounded just like you I know you see me failing to find you, and i hope you smile because that's winning for you.
