#emetophobia 1

okay, not really, but i’m still feeling pretty miserably sick.

gonna sit up for a little bit to see if that helps anything, since sleeping didn’t seem to do much anyway.

side note: if you see me online (hint: my queued reblogs all say “q” in the tags, so if you just see those posts, i’m probably not here), remind me to drink water. i really don’t want to get horrifically dehydrated like i did last time i had a stomach bug.

especially since i can’t just, like, guzzle water right now, or i’ll irritate my stomach even more. i have to consistently remember to take “small sips of water” pretty frequently, and we all know how i am with remembering to do mundane shit, heh.

ugh.

i feel gross and sore and Unhappy.

so yeah. i calmly walked into the living room, informed my parents that i was feeling sick and would probably vomit very soon, then went into the bathroom to do just that. i think my parents find my very....restrained announcements of illness to be weird, but idk what else to do? it’s like i don’t want to just bolt to the bathroom without saying anything.

but lol i have expended way too much energy today.

there’s a lot more blank wallspace now.

trying to keep it to areas i don’t see from my bed, but it’s still making me nervous. which is ridiculous, but whatever.

also, i attempted to eat something a bit ago--we have very little i can eat in the house atm, so i heated up a flour tortilla and put apple butter on it--and i’m feeling weirdly queasy? it’s odd, because i’ve noticed before that when i eat something in a flour tortilla, i often get sorta queasy. i don’t seem to have this reaction to bread, though, so idk if it’s a gluten thing?

anyone else have that problem? if so, do you have a gluten allergy/sensitivity thing going on?

anyway. sorry for the food talk, but i’m very tired and rambly.

i’ve tried eating, keeping my fluids up, and sleeping. so far, nothing has helped. i did take some advil a bit ago, cos now i’ve got a headache on top of everything, but i kind of doubt that’ll take care of the stomach ache.

mum says i might have picked something up when we were out to eat on tuesday, which kind of terrifies me. cos my mum took my uncle to his radiation therapy yesterday, and depending on what’s wrong with me, there’s a small chance she could have passed my illness on to him.

on our way up, i spent most of the two-hour drive with my eyes closed and trying really hard not to throw up. my mum drives really aggressively, and she can’t seem to do anything but sudden stops and starts, so i get really nauseous when she’s driving. and of course my dad couldn’t drive cos he has to rest his feet, so things did not get off to a very good start.

i didn’t throw up, though, and things went pretty smoothly once we got on the long stretches of highway where we could go like 70 for ages. cricket loved being up north, and she didn’t bark too much. we did a fire and roasted marshmEllows, and we watched mystery men until everyone wanted to sleep.

i didn’t sleep much, and my neck hurts from sleeping on the tiny-ass couch. still, i had a nice time, i suppose. it was something to do, at any rate.