Sentence meme pregnancy version from here
There werenât a lot of things she could say right now that would bring his attention back to her since Rick just came back from a horrible mission and two losses weighing heavy on his shoulders that let him come into their bedroom like a fucking mess. In fact he didnât even look at her, didnât say a word and just sighed after throwing his ripped coat on a chair before walking over to the bathroom to wash his hands. His mind was all over the place but for sure not with her until Em spoke up and said these two words that changed everything and let his heartbeat stop. âWhat?â
His brows furrowed as he stopped the water and lifted his eyes to look at her over the reflection in the mirror since she appeared in the doorframe of the bathroom. For a moment their eyes just met and even if he wasnât sure that what he heard was right, he noticed the seriousness in her eyes which made his throat ache as he turnt around. While drying his hands on a towel he just stared at her, waiting for her to repeat the words she apparently couldnât force out again. After throwing the towel to the side he cleared his throat and stepped closer, his chin lowering to look at her from below. âExcuse me, what did you say?â And then she said it again.
âIâm late.â Two simple words with so much meaning that Rick had to be careful not to lose the ground under his feet as he scoffed to process this.
âEm, I donât have time for your silly games right now. I had a tough day and all I wanna do is lay down in bed now to rest and maybe fuck myself to sleep with you.â Suppression. He pushed reality away cause he simply wasnât able to process this right after losing people being close to him. And what did being late even mean? These things could happen through stress, it didnât have to mean anything, did it? âExcuse me.â he mumbled and wanted to cross her, his hands already opening his shirt as the grip of his arm stopped him.
âRick, Iâm serious. Guess what, I donât like to tell you this in this scenario either but⌠donât you wanna know the truth? I thought weâre being honest with each other.â
âIâŚâ his eyes fell on her hand holding onto him and with another deep sigh he grabbed her hand to lead her to the bed with him and sat down on the sheets. âOf course weâre being honest with each other. Itâs just⌠I lost two good men today, Em. I just washed off blood from my enemies and now youâre throwing literally a bomb at me. So how do you expect me to react? I mean⌠this isnât certain now, is it? Itâs not like⌠the only reason for being late is a baby.â
It probably hurt for Em to see him react like this, but luckily she learnt to handle him over the time and sat down next to him, holding onto his hand with a gentle smile. âWould it be that bad?â Would it? Rick couldnât properly answer to this and instead buried his face in his hands, sliding along his eyes to calm the running thoughts overwhelming him.
âFuck I donât know. Itâs just⌠the timing Em. I canât⌠I canât process this.â
âRick listen to me.â Softly she lowered his hands from his face to search for his gaze before she led one of his hands to her stomach. âNever in my whole life my period has been late. And well⌠considering how⌠you know we didnât really take attention to the protection and things like this can happen. I know itâs not a perfect timing but when is? Youâre always in danger and you probably always will be considering who you are. But that didnât stop me from being here, did it? Obviously it didnât even stop this from happening. So, I ask you again. Would it be that bad?â
Slowly her words sank in and Rick knew that she was right. That this was his responsibility as much as it was hers. It was him not being able to resist her. To take her in. To let her stay at his place. Treat her like his wife already even if he never considered it. Damn, they even fought like a damn married couple and still it never crossed his mind that he wanted this to end. No, despite all the habituation which always had noted him and the risks their relationship brought, he always wanted her and she was the only one able to calm his mind like she did right now as his forehead rested against hers to close his eyes, focusing only on the touch of her stomach where their hands interlaced and kept her protected. âNo. No it wouldnât be that bad. In fact I⌠I imagined you to become a wonderful mother before we even⌠before you even stayed with me here. I just always thought I⌠I wouldnât really be a good father you know?â At least not in his position. His eyes opened again, his face still expressing the fear and doubt he had about this. âI just⌠do you want to make a test? Maybe we have some in the nursery. Or⌠we could drive together to get one or I tell Daryl to get one. I just⌠itâs late and we can only see the doctors tomorrow but⌠I want to be sure you know? Tell me what you need me to do and Iâll. Iâll go through this with you. Whatever you need. I just wanna be there.â