#em's rambles

My name is Emfaeri but you can just call me Em! I'm 28 and have been writing fanfiction off and on for the better part of 10 years, some of my works are popular in certain fandoms already! You might recognize some of my mannerisms but shhhh. My birthday is July 13th and a cancer and I'm honestly an open book for any other personal questions you might have.

Currently I'm only going to write for The Freak Circus and I will take requests soon!

Masterlist and General Disclaimers Below the Cut!

My Jack Griffin corner!!

OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR 1.5K FOLLOWERS!! 😳💕✨️😭 when did this happen???

Also...sorry for the slow updates. I'm having a bunch of stuff happened and also am sleeping half the time due to the ankle sprain (hurts like hell man and idk why but im refusing to take painkillers ugh...should have just taken them). BUT I promise I'll get back to writing this weekend!

i used ai a little to help me with writing as english isn’t my first language, before learning how harmful it is, and i don’t remember what parts of my writing has been helped with ai, so i don’t know what to do 😭 i don’t wanna use it anymore, but i don’t know what to do with what i’ve already written (because it is like 98% my own)

what do i do? :(

Thank you for opening up sweetheart.

This isn't easy to admit and I feel you. So first of all, good on you for wanting to change.

Now coming to what you can do, if majority of what you wrote is your own and there are areas you are genuinely happy with that you wrote then leave it be. Don't delete it because then you'll regret it because well...it is YOUR work. Not a pure AI slop.

Though using AI to write isn't good because especially here in tumblr we THRIVE in the human-ness of writing. The grammatical errors even after midnight editing, the forgotten spell check that leaves "breakfast" spelt as "nreskfat" (been there done that) and every nuance to a post that makes it YOURS!

Writing isn't something you can assess and rank. You aren't better than anyone nor are you worse. You are just a person wanting to put their thoughts and ideas into words and sharing it to people for free! There is beauty in that regardless of any worry you'd have about your language.

I understand. English isn't my first language either and im sure there are mistakes even in this post. But I still want to write.

In the end all I can say is my opinion so I'll share it. Leave the written works youve already done. Start making each post your own now. You don't have to announce it nor do you have to compare it with your previous posts. Write whatever you want now love. I assure you there will be people who love it. And if you lose followers or people stop interacting? Let them leave.

Those who stay will be fortunate enough to enjoy everything you share with us, love. ♡

I for one am excited. Because seeing someone realise something and change for the better? That's bravery right there. :)

Keep it at, sweetheart. And id love to read your new posts! Dm me or send em over if you'd like!

"THIS MAMA IS READY FOR TRAUMA!"

I wish I could get my confidence back. Things happened a little while ago and my confidence to post anywhere other than Bluesky just crumbled because of it. It took me a while to get even these words out here.

I got hurt in my previous fandom when drama flared up, and while the hurt has gone away, the fear of it happening again hasn't. So any time something - anything remotely drama-like happens, fandom or not - my fears come back to the surface and I start overthinking and worrying and ultimately, I hold back. My confidence to say even the most normal of things just breaks.

I know this is my problem to deal with, but I honestly thought I'd made progress on it. Apparently not. I always did say I was too soft, too weak, too timid for the internet. I'm fine with smaller groups or just one-on-one, so that might be what I need to do until I get my confidence back.