#elijahj

Because I barely post pictures of him 🍃 @iamelijahj

I didn’t plan to fall for you, you were just supposed to be a celebrity crush from a group. I never planned to get so involved in learning about you. I didn’t plan to learn about your past to see how you had got where you are now. I didn’t plan to scroll all the way back to the very first tumblr post you made and read all of them until I finished at 3:30 am. To me a person’s tumblr is like their story, it shows you what interest them. It shows you what they like and dislike, what they stand for, and you can even learn facts about them if they answer questions people asked. I found his tumblr to be like his diary, where he could escape from the life as a celebrity and just be himself. I found myself falling for the words written in his diary. We both like photography and they say if you really want to know what a person finds special or important in their life just look through their photos. His love for his friends and family is inspiring, I fell for his words and the way he respected women. I fell for his positivity and his desire to make people lives better just by making them smile or life. I saw him less as a celebrity and more as art. I wondered how he could steal the brightness from the sun and put it in his smile. I wondered how he could take the beautiful light from the moon and reflect them in his eyes making it hard for me to look away. I want to ask him how he took the angels ability to speak and placed it in his voice so that when he talked I always had to listen. When he laughs I hear the happiness of children having fun on the playground. When he sings I hear the voice he was given by the angels up in heaven. When he writes…it’s as if God is whispering to him what to say, to show the peace, love, and positivity he so destined for the world to be filled with so why wouldn’t I be intrigued and want to follow his lead? I found myself admiring his facial features but falling for his soul. For each star in the sky I can give you a reason for why I fell for him but by the time I finished I realized his soul was made up of the galaxy, every star representing a reason I fell for him, every color representing a different emotion that he and I have been through but for different reasons and the darkness representing the emptiness that the galaxy had to break through I wonder…how someone can be made up of the world and not even realize it. But even with all of this said, even if I gave him a letter with this wrote in it I would still be only looked at as a dedicated fan. This is the hard times of a one sided love and even knowing that I will be nothing more than a fan…my feelings will never change

P.S. I’ll let you have your fun for now but I’m going to start pulling at your heart strings so that one day you can be mine if I’m lucky. I love you Elijah and it was a pleasure meeting you

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