#eleanorbishop

A/N: It is really really short and I guess crappy because I still don’t feel well but I felt bad for not posting. I am sorry.

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Outside the sun was shining but she didn't care, her world had been gray for weeks. She was no longer sleeping properly, thick blue-purple circles under her eyes adorned her once so beautiful and happy blue eyes. They were almost as deep as the hole in her once so bright soul. Now there was nothing more to be seen than sadness, anger and despair.

She no longer listened properly, all attempts to get her to take part on the work were unsuccessful and hopeless. Her eyes only stared at the table, her partner's table, that was already empty, but it took all her attention to itself and enveloped the room with feelings of guilt and bewilderment.

There was no word that could describe this emptiness and unbearability in her. Despair and excessive demands of the events flooded her body. So many questions were buzzing in her head and it seemed to her as if she only knew the 'why?' to which she still couldn't find an answer to this day.

'Why you?' just buzzed around, she absolutely didn't deserve to die. 'Why?'

Why hadn't she sacrifice herself for her partner? She deserved to live.

She placed the flowers that she had previously bought from the little cemetery shop on the gray marbled grave with the slightly lighter gravestone.

Fuerteventura flowers, they were her favorite flowers.

She knelt in the green grass and in front of it and left read the big squiggly writing. Her name should have been there, not hers. She was too young to die and yet she sacrificed herself. Sacrificed herself for her best friend.

The blonde wiped away some tears, she didn't move, didn't say anything, just watched the cold white stone. It wasn't fair, she had solved many cases, including many where she almost died. She knew the dangers and yet..

Tears after tears ran down her cheeks and again she hoped that it was all just a stupid joked and that the brunette would start laugh behind her. But it wasn't a joke or a stupid dream, it was a reality.

And reality hit her harder than she had ever imagined.