#eldrot

           there’s something oddly comforting about their presence, akin to being sleepily cuddled by elder sister on saturday mornings as they watched cartoons together; blend tucking her face under marilyn-ann’s neck to breathe in the faded essence of her perfume, legs and arms twisted together as the day passed them by, only ever moving to eat together or rush for the remote before the adds could play—- it’s sinister, how easy blend almost finds herself giving into the urge to float towards them, her limbs heavy as if wrapped in the gossamer of nostalgia— of a life lost. 

           unbeknownst to herself, heavy feet make their way over to him, neck craning to look up stranger’s face—- her throat suddenly dry despite her nervous swallow, hand itching to tuck under her blazer and rub the comforting leather encasing mortar, but she relents, forces earthy-green orbs to remain fastened on them, tongue darting out to wet cracking lips as she shifts on her feet, head shifting this & that way as if fighting to get a grasp on turmoiled thoughts—- blend almost feels crazy, foolish almost for being so stripped bare in her ambivalence.

            halted breath is pushed out, blend’s hand finally finding her comfort, popping the button of it’s housing as quietly as she can bear—- she feels like she’s hunting, but not the hunting that once used to occupy her, but her first hunting; the hours, days spent out in the freezing woods, creeping as quiet as she dared, her feet small and quick in their nervous pursuit of her grandfather, hand wrapped tight and trembling around gun far too big for her frame—- blend never complained, smiled at the bruises she’d find; laughed with her grandfather everytime the booming blast left it’s casing—- the hunting that taught her how to be patient, that soon taught her how to clean the skin from bones, that made her. mind made up, blend utters a single clearing of her throat, arm staying behind her as the rises other taps gently at stranger’s shoulder, uneasy smile crowding her face, ❛ —-do I know you? ❜