#elathinks

When you know you should say it but you don't When you do the careless instead of the brave When you tell yourself you don't really care at all When you know you're lying to yourself because you care so much. It's an endless conversation I've had with myself.

I haven't taken a real shower for days. Yea I think I'll be fine. But somehow I thought that eating all those cookies I made would give me peace of mind.

when you asked me what kind of things i like to do i should have said the simple things when you asked me if i was insecure i should have said yes when you asked me if i was happy i should have said no. when you asked me if i would be yours only i should have said yes

hold you till you leave

You've been talking But I don't know what you're saying Because I've been living in New York City And these people here teach you not to listen Distracted, and I know at night they've all been crying These subway riders Wearing their blinders Staring beyond my face I swore to God I would not turn out like them But it's happening. -EB

And suddenly all those thing you were blind to become clear And everything is just fucking there In front of you And you see it Even though it’s been there all along Like dog piss after the first snow Those yellow spots you stepped in all summer, all fall Without knowing So not caring And you wish you didn’t know so you didn’t have to care How true it is what they say I wish to remain ignorant next time around But oh so blissful I will be. -EB