oh my gosh i actually wrote a complete drabble in one sitting.... theres a possibility for a continuation but i've haven't written this much in FOREVER... have wrio pov reflecting on his prior relation with silvanus:
There was no reason for Wriothesley to come to Palais Mermonia in person this often.
He very easily could continue his regular correspondence with Neuvillette from the comfort of his own office back at the fortress, rather than make the trip for his meetings with Neuvillette every month. He keeps trying to tell himself that these trips were got for himself: to breathe in fresh air and feel actual sunlight on a regular basis. Though partially true, he doesnāt want to pass up on the opportunity to see Silvanus semi-regularly again.
It was extremely selfish of him, after all he was the one to end their short-lived tryst while Silvanus was still interning at the Fortress of Meropide. Aside from their relationship being a theoretical nightmare for the Human Resources department, It was a horrible decision by both of them. Wriothesley had never let himself experience these affections before, finding it hard to trust anyone after everything he had been through. But he genuinely cared for Silvanus, more than anyone else in his life.
It scared him.
But despite his own emotional baggage, he finally wanted to find solace in another person. Even though the two of them had grown up in very different environments, there was too many similarities. His love grew out of the desire to protect her, to make sure she would find happiness and peace far sooner than he did. And he unfortunately knew that he could not bring Silvanus this. He had his responsibilities to the fortress and it would be too cruel to ask her to stay. She deserved so much better than a life underground.
So he left her go. He used the excuse that she had far too much potential to be stuck as a low-level official within Meropide and gave his reference to the Fontaine Research Institute on her behalf. He was sure she understood his true feelings on the matter and chose not to question him further.
He would would ensure her happiness, even at the cost of his own.
And Wriothesley was correct about Silvanusā abilities. Hearing in passing about her accomplishments and eventual employment at Palais Mermonia.
But after seeing her again in person. He couldnāt stay way, he wanted to see her despite knowing it would only hurt himself more. Wriothesley knows she must have moved on at this point but couldnāt help but feel guilty trying to worm his way back into her life.
This was a bad idea, but he couldnāt stay away
When Wriothesley announces his leave for the next meeting, Sigewinne gives him a knowing glance with a small smile and wishes him luck.
On his walk through the streets of Fontaine, he thinks about how Neuvillette is starting to catch on. At the same time, Wriothesley senses a change in Neuvilletteās demeanor and suddenly realizes that the Iudexās feelings may be similar to his. He feels a sharp pang of jealousy and protectiveness, mixed in with his own sadness but it quick passes after another realization: Neuvillette could give Silvanus the adoration and happiness she deserved and Wriothesley would make it happen.
āYes, thatāll doā Wriothesley thinks. āthis will be a good thing for herā
