#eeeshh

I've been asked this seventy times in the last 3 months, I've counted. I  never really knew what to say to their face, so I just smiled and said something like 'things i know i'll never use' or 'how to use programs'or something education-based like that. But honestly, I learned all that shit on my own, the two most important things that high school has taught me, is that girl are bitches, and people are fake. If you don't go to my school then clearly you wont understand, but for those of you who do go to school with me, you know that I'm either with Nathan, I'm with Kelsey, or I'm in Mrs. Little's room by myself.  I'm well aware that I have no 'best friends,' and yeah it sucks cause I really feel like I don't fit in ,but I'm NOT going to change myself or my beliefs to try and fit in with people who won't even remember my name in a few years.  i hear what people say about me, the whispers they mumble when I walk away. I'm aware that I'm weird,  or that I talk obnoxiously loud, and I spend 95% of my time with my boyfriend. I'm civil and I'm kind to literally everyone, so I never understood why I didn't have friends, but I think it has a lot to deal with the fact that I don't go out on the weekends. It's because literally, 99% of the people on this base know my mom. Me getting caught = death. Perhaps that's limited my social-ness to sitting at home and talking to people whoo live 4548964158964 miles away, but you know what? I'm perfectly fine with that. I miss having a 'best friend' but I'd much rather stay true to who I am, rather then go out and drink and end up at a CAF meeting. 

If I've learned anything, it's that in a town like ours, no one is real. Literally, no one. Everyone has done something rude or said something immature about another person, even the adults in this small little town. I've seen people change from straight a students to alcoholicish smoking addicts before my very own eyes, numerous times.