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Love Me or Leave Me by Merce Lemon from the album Ride Every Day

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TRANSCRIPT for EPISODE 7
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DYLAN HANWRIGHT: Itās not comfortable, but thereās a little bit of hope on the horizon, of how can we keep ourselves afloat personally, while also having money for the van, the trailer, the gear. Just striking that balance is really, uh, is a tough thing.
MIKE MOSCHETTO: Whatās the old saying? If it wasnāt for a mic check I wouldnāt have a check at all? Iām Mike Moschetto, and this is Sellinā Out.
[music: āIām a casino that pays nothing when you win / Please put your money inā]
MIKE: Hey! Thanks for listening to Sellinā Out. Proud to be the #1 rated podcast named āSellinā Outā that I am personally aware of at the present time. If youāre listening for the first time, welcome, thank you. Iām mike Moschetto. But if youāve been along for the ride up through this point, itās probably become clear by now that Iāve been sitting on the oldest episodes of this show for over six months, in some cases closer to a year now. Just waffling about it like a coward. And so once I finally embraced my more narcissistic side and mustered up the courage to releases this stupid thing, I was fucking mortified to find that another show called Selling Out, thatās with a āgā, had released its first episode literally a week before I started the submission process for this one.
I think the only course of action when it comes to being beaten to the punch in something like that is that they may have had the name first, but I will utterly crush them in ratings and reviews and buzz. So if you enjoy what you hear, please consider going to Apple Podcasts or your favorite podcatchers and help me bury these guys deep down in the search results with a nice review. I donāt know, Iām sure theyāre nice but what can I say, Iāve got the spirit of a warrior.
Anyway, my guests today are Dylan Hanwright and Malia Seavey, and where do I even begin? Uh, Dylan was one of the primary songwriters in I Kill Giants, who, I know, they just had a big weekend of reunion shows, and no I didnāt talk to them about it, and yes, this episode was taped months before it was even announced, so, Iām trying to get about that. But youāll just have to appreciate this episode for what it is.
You may also know Dylan from his various other projects including Great Grandpa, Trashlord, Apples with Moya, Logfella, Slothfella, thereās probably even more that I donāt know about. And I was also joined by his partner Malia Seavey, who plays in Salt Lick, Dogbreth, and a number of other bands herself. And sheās also active in design work and screenprinting, which is such a huge economic engine within this kind of music I could do a whole episode just on that, and maybe I will.
Anyway, uh, Dylan and Malia and I talked about the role of college and its value to people pursuing creative fields, the lure of the new startup job, geographical isolation, and making do in a major American City and so much more. So, Iām pleased now to give you Dylan and Malia.
[music: āitās just the kids these days they make me feel so old / I donāt feel comfortable in my own skin / I think the best is only over / the night is slowly closing in / and Iām staring at my thighs / you watch an episode and nothing more / I think I'd rather not be soberā]
MIKE: I met you, Dylan, through mutual friends, while they and you were at Berklee College of Music. What were you studying there and, uh, you know, this might be a stupid question for anybody who's in the know, but why Berklee?
DYLAN: Uh, originally I went in for um, the major music production engineering, which is basically recording, itās engineering, producing, all that. Thatās what my draw was, I couldnāt really find that anywhere else. Yeah, I just wanted that specific, I, you know, I didnāt just want to study music or music history or something, I wanted like a specific sort of education. So, thatās why Berklee, and I had pretty much had Berklee in my sights since I was like 15 or so.
MIKE: Right, ācause youāre like a player and a musician, and thereās something about that school that appeals, I mean itās obviously the most prestigious in a certain sense, unless youāre trying to something like really classical.
DYLAN: Right, right. Itās, itās like the more contemporary of the like, the, you know, bigger music schools, and um, and thatās definitely where I, like I didnāt do jazz band or anything in high school. I didnāt really, I was more of just like playing punk shows and stuff like that. So, so even Berklee was, it felt like a little bit of a stretch but, uh, yeah. And so when I got in I kind of had explored a little more and found a different major that seemed a little more interesting to me which was called Electronic Production and Design. And that was a little more focused on synthesis and creating sound, sound design, um a lot of like EDM folks went into that major. Um, so kind of the more like lonely end of production, just the like, you know, programming and sort of using the computer to, to get what you want done in music. And it took me, took me three semesters of applying to get into that major. So I was-
MIKE: Whoa.
DYLAN: Ā Yeah, I was pushing hard for it and finally got in.
MIKE: Wow. And uh, Malia, do you have a formal like college education, like a post-secondary, any kind of vocational music thing, or..?
MALIA SEAVEY: Not really, I went to school for like visual arts, mostly costuming and textiles.
MIKE: Oh, okay.
MALIA: I took like one music theory class, but I really, it didnāt click [laughs].
MIKE: Thatās all fine too, and do you do anything in like costuming now? Visual, kind of..?
MALIA: Um, not really, I still sew, I make like um, accessories and like guitar straps and stuff like that, and fanny packs. But um, I donāt really costume anymore, yeah.
MIKE: Okay. And did you, you had like aspirations of that maybe, like for theater, or...?
MALIA: I did, yeah, for theater. Um, I did, I wanted to do movies and stuff to but itās, you have to dedicate a lot of nights and weekends to that, and I like to play, and usually, you know, practicing ends up at those times, and shows and stuff end up during the weekends and stuff like that, so-
MIKE: So your like music habit kind of got in the, got the better of it?
MALIA: It did, yeah. Which is funny ācause it was definitely like more of a, just a fun side thing for a while, and then I took it more seriously, put the other stuff aside.
MIKE: I guess Iāll throw this to both of you, did, when you were going to school for something so, I mean I think a lot about hyper-specialization, so like, music production, electronic production, sound design. I went to college for audio post-production and sound design, which is so specific that itās like everyone from my major went to LA to work in film and TV.
DYLAN: Sure.
MIKE: Except for me. Did you get any kind of push back before you went to college for something so specific that, you know, the chances of it being lucrative are so-so?
DYLAN: Um, I feel like I was incredibly lucky with my parents and like my support system, and even like friends and everyone I went to school was like yeah this is what Dylan wants to do, Dylan's the music guy, heās gotta go do this. And my parents knew that's really you know, all I really wanted to do. My grandparents went with me to visit the school, and you know-
MIKE: Thatās nice.
DYLAN: -that was a little like scary, I was like you know, what, what are they gonna think, and they came out thinking it was incredible, they loved it, they, they helped me fund my education, and uh, so yeah. I feel really lucky that I didnāt have that push back, ācause I feel like, you know, a lot of folks would and, I think that definitely helped me decide, like ok, I can do this. Like, people support that, and I donāt want to let them down, so.
MIKE: Of course, yeah.
MALIA: Mine wasnāt taken seriously, until I started to get work, I think?
MIKE: Thatās, I mean, the best way to prove anyone wrong, definitely.
MALIA: Totally, yeah. And to be fair I did get like a art degree from a non-art school, so I think that maybe that had something to do with it, but um, yeah. Once I started making money off of it, then people were like, oh yeah cool!
MIKE: Yeah, there you go, yeah.
MALIA: It makes sense now!
MIKE: Yeah, yeah.
MALIA: āCause, ācause people care about money apparently.
MIKE: Thereās a lot to be said, I guess, especially in creative things, for the networking, uh, parts of it. Somethings I think, like I wish someone had said like, hey you donāt need to go to like a private college, like an extremely vocational school for this. Um, and I guess it depends on what youāre doing, right? Especially if itās networking in the sense of like, the only way into an industry, definitely? But, you know, I also like met the woman Iām about to marry at that college so I canāt really complain that much, but I mean... is there anything that you can say about the value proposition of getting a degree, like an advanced degree in music, or art, or design, or whatever. Could you recommend it to anyone, or is it totally from situation to situation?
MALIA: I personally think that one of the major reasons to go to a school like that, is like how you said the connections that youāre gonna make with the people, so I think that if you can find those kind of connections elsewhere, and um like, intern and get like on-the-job experience, I think that that could be just as good and a lot cheaper.
MIKE: Absolutely.
MALIA: But I think that school offers a lot of opportunity to get jobs through professors or meet collaborators and stuff like that, thatās really what I took away from, from going to school.
MIKE: Oh, totally. For sure.
DYLAN: I think what helped me kind of break out of my shell was college, and, and like allowed me, like I, you know, I wouldnāt have met you had it not been for meeting all of my bandmates at college, and I wouldnāt have toured as heavily and like gotten that experience had I not gone to college. And like, the most I learned about myself musically um, was outside of the college playing in bands. So it was like, a lot of the experience I got outside of the schooling itself was the most valuable-
MIKE: Extracurricular.
DYLAN: Right, and...
MIKE: Right.
DYLAN: And I think I wouldnāt have done that, I wouldnāt have been so extracurricular had I just stayed, you know, tried, tried to like intern or tried to go to local venues and stuff and just gone that route.
MIKE: Yeah.
DYLAN: To, to like break into the music scene. But I think that itās up to, itās totally a personal thing. I think a lot of people totally have the ability to get that knowledge and expertise and experience just by getting their feet wet, getting in and doing it.
MIKE: Of course.
DYLAN: But I think college helped me kind of like have a community to like surround myself in, and get comfortable with, and, you know, we all, we all kind of held each other up, and helped each other out and, um, I think thatās something really valuable.
MIKE: And you still do, Iām sure, even, however many years later.
DYLAN: Yeah. Oh absolutely, yeah.
MIKE: And thatās actually, youāre kind of doing all my work for me here, and, uh...
DYLAN & MALIA: [laughs]
MIKE: So while youāre, while youāre at school, obviously you get involved with I Kill Giants, and I donāt think I really appreciated this until maybe after, but like that band got-
DYLAN: I donāt think anyone did.
MIKE: -got huge, it got huge! It got huge. And I, I donāt know if this is maybe what drove it home, but like the reunion set, the Broken World Fest thing?
DYLAN: Yeah.
MIKE: Was that a surprise to you? That, I mean obviously you put in the work for it, but, were you, was it kind of an unexpected response?
DYLAN: I think that I knew that it was gonna be a big show, I knew that it was, you know, that band was a big deal to a lot of people. You canāt really realize that until youāre, you know, on stage and experiencing and having a blast. But um, yeah it was a weird thing, ācause I know that when I left the band, I left Boston, it seemed like such an easier choice. It seemed like yeah, you know, we donāt, we donāt have that much going. Like, career is more important, but uh, you know, months later after Iād moved and kind of like saw the, the like legacy quote-on-quote? Um, that really like set in, and, itās just like grass is always greener, you know itās...
MIKE: Yeah, of course.
DYLAN: It, you donāt know what you got ātil itās gone, that sort of thing, so.
MIKE: āCause you did a last EP and like a last tour, and then the reunion show and all that, do you think to tag something with that kind of finality has some effect on the response andā¦?
DYLAN: Oh absolutely, yeah. Yeah, um, giving people one last chance or whatever, I think, you know, it makes it a little more special, a little more memorable. It means weāre gonna try harder on our end, itās not just another show, you know, I think, I think that, in any, in any capacity, any band doing that sort of thing is gonna see... itās gonna feel a little more special for that reason.
MIKE: I mean Aviator never did like a last show, I think we kind of fizzled out with the understanding like, ah if youāre not riding with us now then like, we donāt wanna give anyone the pleasure, I guess, which is what-
DYLAN: [laughs]
MIKE: -what, maybe why we never really got there.
DYLAN: Sure.
MIKE: I do wanna, I wanna circle back to, uh, the reason that you left Boston, and Iāve always been curious about this. Tell me about the opportunity that brought you back to your home state of Washington.
DYLAN: It was kind of a classic start-up situation. Um...
MIKE: Okay.
DYLAN: Looking back, like, maybe a little naĆÆve at the time, but, right as I was kind of finishing up school, someone who I had been in touch with for a long time, um, really talented game developer, programmer, who, weād always talked about collaborating and stuff. We worked together on like, you know, a few small things throughout college. As I was finishing up, he hit me up and was like hey, Iām starting a startup, weāve got investors, we are, you know, weāve got this house in Redmond, WA that theyāre paying rent for us, weāre just gonna turn it into a dev house. Um, youāre welcome to live there, set up a, you know, set up a studio, and basically make music for our, for, and they were working on this game, that looked amazing, felt amazing, it was a really, from my experience with it, it was a really great product that I really wanted to work on. Um, and so after, you know, a lot of like back and forth and a lot of figuring out what would be best, I decided I wanted to move back, join this startup, get into the creative world professionally. Thereās that panic of being done with college and being like, oh God what do I do, I donāt wanna, donāt wanna go work at food service, you know, like... Like youād kind of said before, going to college for something like that, you know, if you donāt have something like that afterwards, itās like a failure.
MIKE: Oh yeah, I mean I delivered pizza, I was a mailman, I did all that stuff.
DYLAN: So, thatās kind of what made the decision for me, and uh, I told the guys I was gonna quit the band. They were all really cool with it, they were stoked for me. Um, we recorded our last EP, booked our last tour, did all the stuff, and then once we were done with that tour I pretty much got back to Boston and moved out. Moved right into the house in Redmond, and I think within like a month the startup tanked.
MIKE: Wow, I didnāt know it was that quick, I thought it was at least a...
DYLAN: It was pretty quick.
MIKE: So the project never was like, completed then?
DYLAN: Nope. No, it was uh, they had an issue with like, someone who originally was part of the team, and they decided they didnāt want to be, they didnāt want to have them as part of the team anymore, then this person threatened to sue, the investors got freaked out, were like nevermind, weāre out, and that was it. Pack up and get out of the house, and kind of moved back in with my parents, and just like started from ground zero, not, not two months after leaving Boston.
MIKE: I mean I donāt pay really, really close attention but it seems like thereās been kind of like, or maybe this was the start of an indie game development renaissance almost?
DYLAN: Yeah.
MIKE: Have you, is this something youāve continued to try to pursue in the meantime?
DYLAN: I, itās been, thereās been like an on and off, you know, Iāll get really inspired, Iāll get, you know, just get my shit together, and you know redo my website every you know several months, and decide nowās the time. Iām gonna write some game music. Iām gonna get some stuff out there. Letās see what we can do. And then like, a few months later, decide itās too hard, decide itās just like so hard to break into, and be like, maybe another time, Iām just gonna focus on writing my own music right now. So I, I feel like Iāve gone back and forth between that for the past four years.
MIKE: Was it the major change at Berklee that kind of prompted you to get into composing for something so specific as video games? Because a lot of that has to be responsive, right, like it has to be, itās like a totally different mindset of writing.
DYLAN: Right.
MIKE: I would think.
DYLAN: Yeah, itās very different, and uh, I actually minored in video game scoring at Berklee, which was like, just the fact that they had a minor for that, I was like ok, this, this is doable, this is like what I want to do. Um, and I can be taught how to do it, so.
MIKE: Yeah, yeah.
DYLAN: Um, it is, and itās, thereās, itās a lot of tech-heavy sort of, um, knowledge that goes into it and understanding how to write for an interactive sort of experience. Itās different, but itās something I always felt like I was good at, Iāve always loved video games, Iāve always listened to soundtracks obsessively, and...
MIKE: I mean itās some of the most, kind of culturally memorable music for a whole, like a growing generation of people.
DYLAN: Sure, yeah absolutely.
[music: āWhat a gift to feel stroked off by a phrase / to be so simple and so happy and undoubting / I keep commission on the TV and Iām PKD / What a mercy weāre perpetually occluded / we crave the twangy void of the perfect diploid / I am irrational - an expert eraserā]
MIKE: Malia, are you from the Seattle area originally then, or..?
MALIA: I Grew up in Olympia, Iāve been in Seattle like eight or nine years.
MIKE: Tell me about your, your music, your bands.
MALIA: Um, Iām in a few projects. My main project that I write the most for is called Salt Lick, and itās with a group of close friends that, a few of us have been making music together for, I donāt know, two or three years, although this project is pretty new.
MIKE: Same people, kind of reconfigured.
MALIA: Yeah.
MIKE: Okay.
MALIA: Yeah, totally. I sing in that band and like, write the words and stuff, and I joined Dogbreth last August, I think? So I drum in the band. We actually, I got home at 4:30 this morning [laughs] because we were recording for the last week or so, um, at the Unknown in Anacortes, so. Really excited about that.
MIKE: Wow.
MALIA: And, Iām in another project called Super Projection. So yeah, pretty busy, pretty busy with the tunes.
MIKE: And, do these all tour, I mean, it sounds like you were record, were you recording remotely, or somewhere nearby?
MALIA: Um, Anacortes is about an hour and a half away.
MIKE: Okay.
MALIA: Itās like this old church turned into a studio.
MIKE: Ooh.
MALIA: Um, itās really great, loved it, I recorded there with Super Projection about a year ago as well.
MIKE: Oh cool, cool cool.
MALIA: We, we tour mildly, nothing like something people I know. [laughs] Like you know, a week or two here and there.
MIKE: Regionally, obviously.
MALIA: Totally, yeah, the coast kind of thing, maybe over to Montana, but nothing too big yet, hopefully someday, you know.
MIKE: Yeah, yeah of course. I mean you have to, especially in, in your part of the country it has to be so gradual that you get outside of your home base ācause everything is like, I donāt want to say weāre like lucky around here ācause itās not always, results may vary, but you know, you can drive an hour and a half and youāre in like a different market.
MALIA: Yeah, I know, itās crazy.
MIKE: Iām haunted by the three days I did in the northwest.
DYLAN: [laughs]
MALIA: Oh, long drives?
MIKE: Nobody, nobody told me that like you should really have a day in between Portland and San Francisco. So we did the whole thing-
MALIA: Oh yeah thatās a long one.
MIKE: We did an overnight drive, and we were just fucking zombies, and didnāt get to-
MALIA: Sleepy gig? [laughs]
MIKE: Oh, boy.
MALIA: Yep, been there.
MIKE: Just running off of fumes. Um, so take me through some of the, you know, youāre obviously playing in bands too, and trying to support recording and all of that, how are you making money? You said you got some work doing like costuming, and design and stitching, how else are you paying the bills?
MALIA: Um, so I worked at a sewing shop sewing and then eventually managing for like four years after school. And then eventually, about a year ago, I left to do some screenprinting, I started screenprinting on the side while I was working at that shop. So thatās mostly how I make money right now, is printing shirts for organizations and like bands and all sorts of different things. Shirts and um...
MIKE: You own all the, you own like the presses and all that stuff?
MALIA: No, no.
MIKE: NO? Oh, okay. Do you work out of a studio?
MALIA: Yeah, I work out of a couple studios, I work out of um, a place called Fogland for flatstock and then I um, I work out of the Vera Project for some t-shirts and other, other stuff like that. And then, Iām like a dogwalker, like I had a dog walk today. I do like random jobs like here and there like that, and I donāt know, we do some random like, pickup work and stuff like that.
MIKE: Sure, sure.
MALIA: Yeah, mostly that.
MIKE: Like gig economy stuff.
MALIA: Yeah, I guess so. And I, I do some sewing, freelance sewing for people. I also have a company where I sew like um, accessories and straps and stuff like that, and I sell them at like craft fairs and stuff like this, to friends. Fix peopleās stuff.
MIKE: So, going from working for a company for several years, and uh, you know, at the time weāre recording this, itās tax season, that surely wonāt be true by the time this comes out but, have you, like what has been the difference between working for someone and working for yourself when it comes to that sort of adult responsibility shit?
MALIA: Totally. Well, itās definitely hard at points, but then itās, itās really nice to have um, the freedom to decide what I want to do and when I want to do it.
MIKE: Yeah.
MALIA: Um, that can also be kind of scary though. Itās hard to stay motivated sometimes, but I feel like I, I do a really good job at keeping busy [laughs]. So, whether itās something-
MIKE: Thatās, I mean, you have to, yeah.
MALIA: Yeah, whether itās something thatās making money or not. I do a lot of inexpensive things now, like um, creating art, and stuff like that, like, you know, playing music, but. I mean, traveling is expensive, but I, I feel more creative now that, you know, Iām not like drained all day at the sewing shop somewhere.
MIKE: yeah, I mean thatās, thatās worth everything if you can make your schedule work for you, then thatās, I mean, so, I was a, I was a, I mean I still kind of am, but I was only a recording engineer for, I donāt know, two years maybe? And I remember the first year that I filed taxes and I owed like $1000, and I was like AUGH!
MALIA: Oh yeah.
MIKE: And then I got a side job and that kind of all balanced out, and I was like ok, alright I can like surrender a little bit, and then you kind of just inch a little bit more toward giving more and more of your time.
MALIA: Mhmm.
MIKE: Um, is what you do kind of feast or famine? Are you like loaded with work at times and then thereās a dry spell for a while? Or is it fairly constant?
MALIA: Itās pretty even. Itās, yeah, I mean, there are definitely, it, Iām always working on a project but sometimes they do stack up. So. Sometimes it can be a little bit overwhelming in that sense, but um, I donāt know I think I strive off of being incredibly busy, so, itās good for me [laughs].
MIKE: Itās good, I mean, thereās nothing worse than getting really busy and then having a drought and then having to kind of string yourself along financially through all of that. Um, I guess I should get back to, so take me through, you alluded to this Dylan, within two months of moving out, youāre kind of back to the drawing board. Youāre freelance now, but how are you kind of stringing yourself along between then and now?
DYLAN: So, um, I moved back in with my parents, they live like an hour south of Seattle. And so, that was kind of when I was back there, it was kind of a scramble, I was, you know, broke, trying to figure out like well, do I move back to Boston? Like I spent so much money getting back here,. but maybe if I can get a job and raise some money, like I can get back to Boston, just kind of, just resume what I was doing. Um, and so I moved to Seattle ācause I got a job teaching children how to ride bikes.
MIKE: Whoa.
DYLAN: That was my first job in Seattle. Uh, did that for a summer, basically took that whole summer to just like catch up to my credit card and pay off debt. So at that point, Iām like, now Iām, you know now Iām maybe a little bit in the black, but still nowhere near able to move back to Boston. Even, nonetheless pay for a plane ticket. So, I was like well I guess Iām here in Seattle, I gotta get a new job. Um, you know, I worked at a hospital doing, like, sound and video for conferences, and then I worked for a game company for quite a while. And then during all this, just kind of let go of the idea of moving back to Boston. I started to like make friends, I Started to meet people, started a band. And just like in all of this, sort of working a day job, just kind of like doing music when I could. A year or two after, you know, I had to move back with my parents, it was like, Iām in Seattle now, this is where I'm at, this is what I'm gonna do. Because itās a great city, and it/s, thereās still, itās like you said, itās kind of a, you know thereās a renaissance for indie gaming, and thereās always gonna, itās always gonna be there so, you know, I might as well just grind and grind and see what this can do for me.
MIKE: Letās, I guess let's talk about Great Grandpa, right? I mean thatās going pretty well, huh?
DYLAN: Yeah, uh, as well as anything has gone for me in a band.
MIKE: It seems like it anyway.
DYLAN: You know, we put out a record on a label, and we had a booking agent, and we were like cool, let's do this, letās do this music thing full time. And that was in July of, uh, 2017.
MIKE: How has that been? How is that, how would you describe...?
DYLAN: It's a strange world because itās just like, itās not that you have a better job, itās not like you have more of an income playing in a band. Itās that maybe down the road-
MIKE: Whaaat?
DYLAN: -you will, you really have no idea but the only way to find out is just to do it. And so, thatās kind of where we were at. We had finished recording this record, we spent a lot of time on it, we got a booking agent through it, Greg Horbal, who, you know, maybe that wouldnāt have happened had I not gone to school also. So itās like all these things that just, all these experiences, all these people, all these connections just kind of like culminated in like, great! We got a booking agent, our booking agent helped us get on a label, the label is, you know, run by folks that Iāve known for a little while too. And itās like, sort of a, all came together at once. And um, weāre like great, weāre ready to release this record, Greg got us on our first full US tour with the band Rozwell Kid, who are some of my favorite people that Iāve known for a little bit. And uh, so it all just, it worked out so perfectly, we all felt so like, you know lucky and blessed and just kind of went for it. So, ok, letās quit our jobs, letās tour, and during that tour we got our offer for the next tour, the Citizen tour. Um, and then during that tour, we got an offer for the Diet Cig tour, and just kinda like, you know, you just kinda keep going.
MIKE: Itās kinda rolling at this point.
DYLAN: Yeah, you just do it. Maybe it doesnāt really work out monetarily, you kind of flounder a little bit, but, you know, when weāre on tour, we get like daily per diems to eat basically, thatās just like what weāve budgeted for ourselves based on how much we make per show. Um, everything else pretty much just goes back into the band fund, we donāt really see a lot of that, so, um, really I just kind of saved up enough at my old job as I was preparing to quit to really just help me get by those months when I was back home, or like you know, paying rent when Iām on the road. But really, itās like we donāt see a whole lot from the band itself, itās still just kind of an investment towards our own future. And recently we, like, we were like feeling you know pretty, like ok, we just kind of settled down, weāre you know, about to finish off this eight months of touring, what do we want to do as far as money? Like, we get our payouts every day, but you know...
MIKE: You still have like phone bills.
DYLAN: Right, exactly. Like, what, what should we do, and so we kinda looked at what we had and just like decided on a fair amount that everyone should get, just because we had just gone through all this, you know, stuff with the record, we got like a publishing deal, and, you know. And so they gave an advance that says like, as a a band you get paid when something gets placed and licensed and used, but when a publishing company, sorry and this was all new to me when this started happening. I learned pretty quickly.
MIKE: Right, this is all kind of stuff that Iāve heard peripherally about.
DYLAN: Right, right.
MIKE: Itās so alien to me that itās never really made sense, but.
DYLAN: Itās bizarre. Itās just insane that someone would just give you money to, to have the rights to your record whether or not itāll get placed, you know, they could potentially not make any money off of us, you know, and, but, they kind of put their faith in us and said hereās this advance. And, so anyway, without going into like, you know, too much further into like what we make as a band.
MIKE: Sure, sure.
DYLAN: Itās, itās not comfortable, itās still sort of like weāre grinding, but thereās a little bit of hope on the horizon of like, ok, this happened, you know, how can we keep making this happen. How can we keep making enough to like keep ourselves afloat personally, while also like having money for the band, you know, so many expenses. The van, the trailer, the-
MIKE: Oh my God.
DYLAN: -the gear, just, yeah it all adds up. So, itās like striking that balance is really, is a tough thing, but.
MIKE: Is there anything that you, or your bandmates, either of your bandmates, uh, that you could do from the road and like kind of generate some income while youāre, while youāre out?
DYLAN: For most of us, itās work, work, work while weāre home, have enough to like survive on the road and pay rent, but uh, Pat from my band, uh, heās a 3-D environment artist. Um, he does, yeah he works on video games and like VR experiences.
MIKE: Wow.
DYLAN: And so, yeah heās been able to do a ton of work from the road, um, you know heās had like business calls in the van, and you know, [laughs] shit like that. So, uh, itās possible, I think it, for me unluckily, itās, I canāt really, I donāt have a, I donāt have like a laptop, I canāt really work on music on the road in that capacity. I really prefer to have like my whole setup. So yeah, itās more of just kind of like marinating on ideas and stuff, if that counts, but other than that, no.
MIKE: Sure it does.
DYLAN: Thereās not a whole lot of money to be made, you know, freelance-wise on the road. For me, personally, I donāt know.
MALIA: I do some like, poster design and stuff like that, and I can like prep artwork for screenprinting when I get back and stuff. Uh, thatās pretty much the extent of mine though.
MIKE: Yeah. Can you like-
MALIA: Do like some clerical stuff, Photoshop.
MIKE: Can you like book work while youāre out and take like deposits or whatever? That was like, that was my bread and butter for a while.
MALIA: Yeah, definitely. I donāt really take deposits on stuff, but um, just like, yeah having, having work ready when you get home is important, or when I, for me at least.
MIKE: Oh yeah, of course. If you can line it up in advance, then, it feels a little better to be like ok I got two more weeks, one more week.
MALIA: Thereās money on the horizon! [laughs] Yeah.
MIKE: Before you start calling home for a handout or anything.
MALIA: Oh my God.
[music: āI never thought itād be easy / I never wanted to see it / and I donāt want to need it / like I do anymoreā]
MIKE: Dylan, youāve spent time outside of Seattle, like I wonāt pretend to know enough about the music scene here that I can make this comparison, but at least, talk me through maybe the differences between Seattle and Boston in terms of like, I donāt know, just the cost of living, the opportunities that you get.
DYLAN: You know, I think Bostonās definitely, it costs more, but I also have a, I like got lucky with my situation here, and you know, pay a lot less than average. So thatās, you know, just my experience. But uh, cost-wise, itās definitely seems more expensive to live in Boston, however, the community, the music scene that I was involved with, and still like tangentially am, in Boston, feels a lot more supportive but at the same time kind of like tight-knit. And I feel like I, I luckily have that tight-knit community around me, and that was really, I was really fortunate for that, and I think that helped me sort of like, exist in the music scene and, and you know, um, succeed. Uh, whereas here, itās there but itās not as, itās not as like close, itās not as friendly, itās like everyone in the scene are, theyāre my acquaintances, and I have some very close friends in the scene, but itās all kind of-
MIKE: ITās almost counterintuitive to think that a bigger music scene thatās kind of centered on these institutions like Berklee for example would be more cooperative, ācause youād think that kinda breeds competition in a way, and kind of like shitty attitudes. And I think thereās probably that, too, occasionally.
DYLAN: Right. Well and thatās the thing, I feel like, you know, Iām sure that in Seattle there are these tight-knit communities, you know, through the college, or you know, just, thereās so many different communities, and there are very close communities where people have positions where they can book at prevalent venues and like you know, help out, sort of the DIY scene and help kind of raise it up. I feel like Boston, I saw that a lot in Boston. I saw people got positions at these venues, people like moved up and used that to like try to help each other out, and I just saw people turn from DIY people to like music professionals, but theyāre still grounded in DIY.
MIKE: The rising tide lifts all boats kind of deal.
DYLAN: Yeah, absolutely. And so like I said, Iām sure that exists here, I just, itās, Iām part of the scene in a different way here, Iām just a different sort of...
MIKE: Tapped into a different vein of it.
DYLAN: Right, right.
MIKE: Malia, have you lived in this area youāre whole life?
MALIA: Um, Iāve lived in the Pacific Northwest for most of my life that I can remember [laughs]
MIKE: Sure, and is-
MALIA: But like I said, I moved here like eight years ago or so.
MIKE: Of the places youāve traveled is there anywhere else you could kind of see yourself, like doing what you do in kind of, or is it really all about your social circles here?
MALIA: Um, I really appreciate the connections I have in Seattle, and I think that that makes it really difficult to imagine moving, but unfortunately, Seattle is getting um really expensive. So, I have lucked out in that I have a really affordable rent, but that is kind of, itās not easy to find that, you have to kind of have an in to a house or something, or like, be willing to live with a bunch of people. So, eventually Iāll probably have to see myself in a different place. But I, I think my skills are transferable. I think I can do this kind of thing.
MIKE: Oh, no doubt.
MALIA: Live this lifestyle, you know, in a lot of different places so Iām not too worried about it.
MIKE: I mean anywhere thereās an artsy enough community to sustain it. But I guess in terms of the price of rent, like, thatās something that obviously Boston has down, um, well I should say up.
MALIA: Is it expensive there too?
MIKE: Oh my fucking God. Itās, itās out of control, and itās only, I feel like itās only gotten worse since I initially lived here for college. Like you could find places for like $675 a month and now itās [whistles] off the charts. Um, how close to the city are you?
MALIA: Dylan lives lieka Ā five-minute walk to a light rail that brings you right in. ANd I, I live, itās called the U DIstrict, itās like where the University of Washington is, and itās like a five minute bus to downtown, but, other than that, my neighborhood has, you know, a lot of what I need anyways. Itās like got a lot of, I got a lot of friends living around me and lot s of little house venues here and there.
MIKE: And how is that connected to, where do you practice with your bands, where does your, how far of a commute is the different places that you do screenprinting or whatever else?
MALIA: Um, I practice in Ballard, which is, you know, like a five-minute drive, without traffic from my house, so itās not that bad. Or you know like, 15-20 minute bike ride.
MIKE: In like a rehearsal room, or uh, somebody's house?
MALIA: Yeah, I have a practice space. And then I practice at, um, my bandmateās house, for Dogbreth, which is literally two blocks from mine so itās like incredibly convenient.
MIKE: Oh, awesome. So all your gear lives there, and all that too?
MALIA: Mmhmm. Yep.
MIKE: Cool.
DYLAN: Yeah, and for me, Iāve kind of built, [laughs] built everything I need into my house. Uh, I, like I live with a bunch of people but Iām fortunate enough that theyāre willing to, you know, have, let bands have practice here, and have me record here and all that stuff, so, um. Yeah luckily everyone comes to me for practice, in all three of my projects, so thatās pretty cool.
MIKE: Yeah itās nice isnāt it?
DYLAN: Yeah, yeah. But like Malia said, Iām pretty close to downtown if I need it, you know, I think weāve both just kind of set up our lives that, the stuff we need, you know the stuff about a city that you need, so like, you know, just accessible public transportation, accessible groceries, and somewhat of like a social scene. I feel like we've kind of got all those bases covered, sort of where we live, we kind of live on opposite sides of downtown.
MALIA: Dylan even brings the gig to him.
DYLAN: Thatās true, yeah.
MALIA: [laughs]
MIKE: Thatās right, you do.
DYLAN: We have shows here, and uh, yeah so really I donāt have to leave the house, ever.
MIKE: I mean, Iāve talked to, Iāve talked to folks who do gigs at their house before, and thatās a whole, thatās a whole ball of wax that, I mean thereās so much personal liability that comes into it. Like, you obviously know I had a house set up a little like yours, I didnāt share it with people, but um, you know, I, the night that I had to move out, like, somebody had said like when you get out of here, you should do a show and just like tear the place up. And thatās the only, thatās like the only outcome i can imagine, just like so much destruction. How do you, like, how do you navigate that? Is everyone pretty respectful generally? Do you find yourself putting a lot of rent money into like-
DYLAN: No, you know I kind of started out the venue, you know started booking shows with this sort of understanding that itās like not a party house. We do shows here, and thatās it. You know, and, I want people to have fun and I want people to have a good time, but there is like, Iāve just seen, yeah, Iāve seen you know, what youāre talking about. I've seen some pretty rough DIY spaces in both audience kind of like unruliness but also sort of like promoter just kind of like, yeah we could have a show! And then theyāre not there for an hour. You know, after bands are supposed to show up and theyāre just drunk, or like whatever it is, so I think like my goal for the venue is to kind of like make it a place where people felt safe, where bands felt like they were communicated with, and like you know are willing to play here. And yeah for the most part itās like kind of part of this venue now is that it, it is a pretty mellow, mellow place to see a show. And, I tend to even avoid like, you know, like louder punk bands, which part of me feels bad about, because that, you know, I still like that music. But, itās also like-
MIKE: Thatās sellin' out, dude. [laughs]
DYLAN: Yeah.
MALIA: A lot of thought goes into, um, like the promotion of the shows too, thatās like specifically respect the space, and I donāt know people are reminded that throughout the night sometimes by the bands.
MIKE: Doesnāt it suck to have to remind people of that?
MALIA: It does, I get it though. I think that people that donāt organize shows, they donāt really think about that, you know. They just go to this show and theyāre like itās a party! But um, you know, when youāre like hey this is our fuckinā house, like, can you please [laughs] respect it, and like-
MIKE: Yeah, I see like, like pillows on couches and-
MALIA: -clean up after yourself, and you know.
MIKE: Yeah, of course. I, uh, in the interest of like journalistic fairness I should probably interview some like ornery landlords or something.
MALIA: [laughs] yeah.
MIKE: Uh, whatās your ideal situation, either of you? Like in terms of like earning, and making a living, like how does that, how does what youāre doing now play into it, into like a larger goal?
MALIA: I mean hopefully in the future my ideal would be like making a little bit more money, but like as for what Iām doing, like, I donāt really see myself wanting to anything much differently. Which is like a nice place to be in in life, I donāt, I feel really content with the activities that I do on a day to day so to speak.
MIKE: Thatās great, thatās always nice to end on a high note.
DYLAN: Yeah, and it, to go off of that, Iād be stoked to like be similarly like, in any realm of possibility making more money off of music to support myself and, and be able to fund my insatiable need for video games and uh, and music gear. Thatās all I need.
MIKE: Oh man, thatās a money pit right there.
DYLAN: It is, it really is, I donāt think anyone can really afford it.
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