#downreg

Well I've done eight days of injections so far.  I am a bit tired and foggy headed, the other day I dropped boiling porridge all down myself and have a blistered burnt leg.  The next day I threw tea everywhere.  So far so good!

Day one was at home and my parents happened to be there, day two was in a layby on the way back from the hairdressers and day four was on a pub car park during an MG run with my parents.  The last two I have managed to do myself at home which is good as Rob has now left to go on a boys jolly to Le Mans.  I am absolutely furious with him.  Not only that but I've barely seen him all week as he's tried to stretch himself too thin and now he's stressed to the max.  It's all his own fault and I have no sympathy.  We only moved into the new house a week and a half ago and were doing quite well with getting things in place but now it's all on hold until he's back. 

I actively dislike him for leaving me at the moment.  I know part of it is my fluctuating hormones as at one moment I feel rational and at another I feel raging.  But I still can't get over the fact he is that selfish to leave me on my own while going through all of this.  I know it doesn't seem like a massive thing but he's the one that said we'd do it all together every step of the way and that he wanted to do my injections.  He was late home the last two evenings so I had to man up and do it on my own.  He's really let me down and I just can't forgive him at the moment.

We have our first scan next Wednesday to see how down regging is going, I have my fingers crossed it's going to be ok.  I'm currently waiting for my period to show up as I've heard you need to have a bleed before you can start stims.  That's the other thing, we currently don't have internet so I don't have the support network that's online at the moment and am feeling pretty isolated.  I have started to feel some cramping today so I'm hoping it's imminent.

I am meeting some friends on Sunday, two with babies and one with a big bump.  Then I'll come home to do my injection.  It's all pretty rubbish.  I can't wait to see them but don't know if it will have any effect on me.  I have planned to go to my parents for dinner that evening so I am not alone dwelling on things.