#downbeatbunny

I've tried finding new friends and ranting to new people. I even fell for someone. They taught me--that you can't depend on someon simply because you have feelings for them. Just because you kee their heart, feelings and well being in your mind, doesn't mean they do. You told me I could rant to you when I needed, but you never wanted to listen. You demanded that I talk to you whenever you wanted to talk, but get upset when I talk about liking your attention. You demanded I explain what was bothering me when I tried to avoid ranting, so I did. Then you told me that it wasn't your problem and that you didn't want to deal with it. Congratulations. You pushed away the one guy that wanted to see you happy and treat you like a queen.

I completely forgot about my tumblr and forgot to post pics of me sizing up my gauges but I’m at 6 now! 

I want to be happy. Oh, trust me I do. I want to be cute with all of my friends and make them all life and smile. Make them all glad they met me. Make goofy memories for us to hold for years to come. But each time these moments come, I can’t help but to sit in silence and feel incapable of making people happy. Like I’m not good enough. 

I like you. You know I do. Yet, I feel like you play with that. I know you have a mate. Y'all argue a lot and you seem to pay with my feelings most when you two are going through touch things. I don't know how long I can wait for you and have my feelings tossed around like a stress ball.

🎶 She said where d’you wanna go? How you much you wanna risk? I’m not looking for somebody with some superhuman gifts. Some super hero, some fairy tale bliss. Just something I can turn to, somebody I can kiss. Oh I want something just like this. 🎶

Another little update, I got another crush and ohmyg. She’s so awkward that it’s cute ;-; Someone save me please. This feels too good to be real.

They call me a “friend” but it’s funny how long it takes for them to realize that I’m not there. Can’t play me as easily as you think.