#dorkgate

And now, the links. http://iamheretospillthattea.tumblr.com/ has several tags dedicated to Dorkinhighheels/Princess Clowny/Elise Archer. She has known the Dork since a very long time and has witnessed several case of stalking/abuse phases. The more interesting tag is Elise Archer and it will take you a lot of time to go through it. If you have only one post to read, it's this one: "Like the baboon in the Lion King said...". Another interesting post to read: "Ok, it's done", which narrates how manipulative the Dork can be. This whole tumblr, thisisnotsincerity, is dedicated to the Dork's scams. Worth the time. Of course I could link all the posts who referred one way or another to our little argument but those tend to dispear, strangely. Again, I'm not doing this out of jealousy or revenge or whatever. I didn't intend to post all of that publically until yesterday, when her bullshit and lies just got under my skin one last time. I'll get in trouble for that. The whole TMNT fandom might shit on me for the next year or more, I don't care. People should know how manipulative and immature Dorkinhighheels is. She wants attention. Look at all her posts "i'm writing this but I know nobody will never read it hi hi" with all the following "omg of course i'll read!!!" comments. She's all love and friendly in the front but you have now proof in this correspondance we had that she's not like that. If you disagree with her, she'll attack you, she'll come again and again, she'll dig up whatever she can on you, she'll accuse you of being misogynist (that's her favorite apparently). Honestly, what "saved" me was that I can read clearly into her manipulative game. That, plus she has nothing to dig up on me, mostly because of the language barriere, and I keep my private life private. Like I said, I'll get a shitton of problems for that and I don't care. 

Yeah yeah yeah, until next time princess.

Good luck with everything, hitto. I hope you achieve all that you desire and that you are happy.

TL;DR Look, I don't care about your explanations, I wouldn't even believe them if I read them. I don't care about your life, about your activities, about anything related to you, even from a distance. I know you have a desperate need for attention and I will show you no more of that because it's getting ridiculous. Seriously, that wall of text? Even if I hadn't dug up stuff on you, it would have screamed "I'm trying to manipulate you so hard". Too bad, I'm bullshit proof by now. Keep dreaming, Elise, keep living in your perfect fantasy world where you're all mighty and powerful. If you're happy like that, mazel tov!

Hi Hitto, I don't blame you for being suspicious, I guess, though I have a very different perspective of what went down between us. In all honesty, as time has passed I have seen how we are quite alike in a lot of ways so I understand why that might be. What I want from you right now? Is to be okay. To not feel like shit, to not be hurting, to not feel unwelcome and unsafe. If that's best achieved for you by me leaving you alone then of course I will. I only answer this now because you asked me an outright question. But I tell you honestly, hitto: my motivation in writing to you was because I truly felt bad to see what you were going through. As for what you think you found via search, well: God a short while ago that would've probably triggered me or sent me into tailspins of anxiety. But the truth is, I never made my identity a secret so I knew it was a possibility. (okay not quite true... I am feeling very anxious about this but not the way I would've been a while ago) I can't make you believe me. And tbh... after the way that has completely manipulated my life for almost two years... I don't have the energy to. If you want to believe it all, you can. You've found a cluster of 4 women, none of whom have ever met me in person, who all live in another country, who are angry at me for rejecting them in various ways (friendship, romance), who draw ridiculous conclusions and extrapolate from what very small amount of information I post about myself online to claim I am lying about anything and everything even though there is absolutely no way any of them can know anything about my personal circumstances. I used to lie about my age hitto - but so what? It was in a silly, self-deprecating way and I've stopped over the last year. I would talk about how I was "21" and then mention remembering watching She Ra when it first aired - it was always obvious I was making a performance of it, of being vain and superficial. Because, as I'm sure you know - that's what I do. I am, as you have noticed, violently insecure and I compensate by putting on a facade of glamour and confidence. I don't like to reveal all the shit I deal with and frequently make a brave face on things. I think you can probably understand that. I am aware of the scope of things they claim I lie about and I''ll point out to you simply: they do not know me in person, they are not witness to my offline life and everything they deduce they do so only from what information I put online. Hardly a complete picture. They do this because it validates their anger at me - and they have been obsessed with me since 2010. And if you actually really look at their stuff, you'll discover a lot of abuse of me for my weight, my looks, my mental illness, my experiences of assault... a whole lot of very ugly stuff. They even posted revenge porn of me once, though quickly removed the evidence when there was a huge outcry (lucky there are screencaps). But, as I said... I can't make you believe me and I'm not inclined to try. I will say they are the main reason I messaged you today: because I wanted to let go of the anger I hold against you, because the anger they hold against me has poisoned them so much and I felt terrified of becoming like that. But anyway. I see now reading back over your message that you're in contact with them so I doubt anything I say will change your mind. Just please don't let them poison you. None of this is worth it. And as for deb... god... I am not the only person she has targeted in the way she has. I can, if you like, point you to multiple incidents of her harassment and stalking of others and all of it in the exact same way she did to me whilst claiming she was the real victim. These other four women have pounced on her story and used it for their own benefit because they feel she makes their petty grudge look more justified. The others are mean losers but deb is evil. Utter evil. And the only reason I don't go more into that right now is because the energy she has sucked out of me the last almost two years is enough. I don't want to give her anymore. I think if you WERE in direct contact with her you would see pretty quickly the way things are, because everyone else has. She is nothing more than a tool to these others. There has been a huge amount of discussion of the lack of ethics these others have shown in exploiting an obviously very unhinged person in their petty grudge. But by herself she has done her best to ruin several people's lives and for no good reason other than romantic rejection. Look further. You'll see the pattern pretty quick. I will point out to you that I've never hidden my name, my blogs, or anything that would've made it impossible for people to find this stuff or impossible for them to find me. And that's because I felt that anyone really looking at the situation would see it quickly for what it is. I was talking to a friend today when I was contemplating messaging you and I mentioned the possibility of this happening and my friend said no... anyone who looks at that situation will see quickly what is really going on so I can only assume you barely scraped the surface in your searchings, or your anger at me is too intense. To be constantly falsely accused of these things, followed about obsessively every space I go into online, have my private life speculated about endlessly by these creeps has been exhausting and demoralising but honestly... much like yourself I am the kind of person who speaks her mind and that pisses people off. And on the internet there are always plenty of losers ready to make a grudge their life's purpose. But I'm sincere. I know I can't convince you of that and since I truly understand what it is like to be very angry and very defensive and very distrusting, I can't blame you for that. I honestly wish I hadn't been so fucked up during the times we first messaged and I could've handled things differently. I'm sorry for that, hitto. It's so tempting to get angry at these other bitches, for fucking me up to begin with and for taking advantage of you now while you are hurting, but I'm just not going to give them that energy anymore. Please stay in the fandom. Your art is honestly amazing. Of course I will leave you alone - I HAD been leaving you alone. Whether you believe me or not... when I see someone going through this... my own experiences make me want bad to reach out. I guess I shouldn't have. I did think about you after a panic attack. You know, I had a feeling you would think that was bullshit... oh well. I knew in writing to you there was 90% chance you would reply as you have but honestly... doing the right thing meant more to me. Yeah, I'm sure you're eyerolling. That's okay. I don't need you to believe me or accept it. I didn't do it for those reasons. And I'm sorry that it clearly upset you more. That 10% chance of smoothing things out... was enough. For me, I want to learn from my mistakes and the mistakes of others. And I meant what I said: you don't deserve to be harassed out of the fandom and it is wrong that was happening. You say you just want me to back off so I don't know... do you think I've been one of the trolls? All I can say is I haven't and I have been 'backed off' all this time since our last correspondence (and before it) and I don't know how to convince you of that any further. And I will continue. I agree the fandom is big enough for both of us. I hope this is enough for you? I reiterate: best of luck to you in everything.

I didn’t do it so far because I don’t give a shit about your life, Elise, and that’s the sad truth you can’t accept. True, I dug up some stuff about your past activities on the Internet. I had my doubts about your behavior, which reminded me of my father’s so much I had to search, and I found answers. You can fool people and be happy with your crowd of admirers, I don’t care, I won’t even say a word about it, but just leave me the fuck out of it. I don’t wish you anything, you’re good enough to find a way to have everything you want, right?

Best of luck with your writing, your art and whatever else.

Well, being an asshole is subjective. My posts were not aimed at you. I do not lurk your blogs. I did not come to you to bother you repetitively and I only answered one question about you, another about turtle D (which is basically a headcanon) on my blog, I did not shove it to your face or whatever. If my stuff appears on your dashboard, I have no control over it, and I will not stop drawing or writing about a subject just because it makes some people uncomfortable (and so far you're the only one who did complain to me). So we're good. Bye.