I don't want to live in my city anymore seriously. Fuck the city of Denver for not cleaning up all these drugs and providing humane institutions for people.
Someone was screaming and screaming upstairs and the cops had to come. Domestic stuff as usual. Cops don't do anything about this since it's happened before.
I slept bad last night. I pay close to 1k a month where I live and some of the people moving in here brought all this violent and drug shit that doesn't need to be here.
It's dangerous, there's nowhere to walk because there's all these homeless people camping out because there's not enough shelters or medical care. I lost my bus pass the other day and I had to step around a mini encampment of filthy shopping carts and sleeping bags and a guy muttering to himself totally schizo about the sun twice.
There's piss and poop everywhere you go now. They built these fucking tiny homes for the homeless and then travelers came and robbed the tiny homes, camped nearby and pooped and peed everywhere the waste department had to come. All these people are getting pushed out from California, Oregon, Seattle because the rent is something else there and coming here all aggressive and angry with Denver's homeless and it's this huge mess because the rent here is getting to be something else.
A bunch of native homeless people got stabbed to death from the travelers nearby a light rail station in the early fall.
My co worker gets worried when she parks her car by the dumpsters behind our office because these guys come and hide in the dumpster and pop out and hoot and holler out of there minds because there on fentanyl or something.
If I want to go grocery shopping and want to walk up to the store I risk being stabbed in mid daylight or the more common hearing disgusting sexual things about my ass. I dress basically like "a Pilgrim" so to speak from an old funny classmate and I still get harassed. It doesn't matter how I cover up.
I almost got broken into from someone on heavy drugs. I live by a needle exchange that brings the worst of the worst here. Fuck that needle exchange nobody there is a nurse or medical professional just a bunch of activists that think letting people shoot up in a clinic is fine and then can wander out high on meth or heroin or whatever. It's not. You need to do that in a hospital and stay in the hospital with an LPN or paramedic there to make sure you don't OD and don't leave while you're in that state of mind where you can go kill people or kill yourself- it's so dangerous leaving people alone on that. I walked back from work and seen people off in the body bag they go because they OD it's a horrible epidemic.
I miss being able to walk around freely and safely in Beijing and Tianjin. Fucking Montreal and just Quebec in general was safer than here even...it wasn't like I was thinking at all ever in these cities about contemplating buying a .45 handgun so I won't get stabbed or shot or raped in broad daylight. It wasn't even bad at all at night. Sure there was like parts that weren't great there and suspicious people at the University Park at night but it was not at this level. It wasn't a fear for your life at night city if you're a woman and fucking Denver is.
I miss being able to do the daily things without getting cat called everywhere I went if I'm not with my SO or a big group of friends.
I'm going to move in the spring. It's settled. I don't want to be here anymore and be thinking about this on top of being a survivor of CPTSD, narc parents and living with anxiety and depression. My brain doesn't want to deal with it. You're a beautiful state Colorado and Denver you used to be cool now it's run by meth heads and fentanyl freaks. The rent is so damn high you have to either live with roommates or make at least 35k a year to live in a so so studio like me and even then... If you want somewhere safe you have to make like 50k for a tiny studio in lodo and most college grads are out here starting at $12-$16 an hour so yeah it's only for mid level to high level business people which takes a long time, being super specialized or fucking trust fund babies who squander their money anyway.
