#donemytime

So, now i begin to find out more of the WHOLE story about his past- His Criminal record, his X girlfriend, his 2 boys, his Family, all in all a pretty sad story-  they all warned me away and told me he was not a good person, but I had met him Clean and Sober- I didn't know this person they were telling me about and I was certain that stuff was all in his past - this mess up was MY fault - If it hadn't been for the run in with my X then he never would have gotten high and gotten himself into this situation- 

Silly CODEPENDANT GIRL 

SO, this began the trips From Austin to Dallas every two weeks a 3.5 hour drive there - a couple hours waiting in line to be checked in,  then a 20 minute visit over a phone through glass- only to turn right back around and drive the 3.5 hours home  letters back and forth pretty much everyday- they were my breath-  if a letter didn't show up one day, i would begin to panic, and get angry, or depressed-   6 months of 400-500 phone bills all for the sake of continued communication - I finally found someone that “loved me for me “ and i wasn't ready or willing to let go of him- -- I had NO clue what was to come- 

over the next 7 1/2 years, he was locked up in either jail or Prison for 6-8 months every year - i began to call it my vacation and look forward to it - because he is bipolar but unmedicated - and his personality flips SUCK he is a really rude asshole to everyone - all because he would want to get High- or rather his BODY does - he actually SAYS he doesn't WANT to do it - but I just don't believe that shit anymore- and the last time he got out of Prison, after a parole violation, not reporting or pissing dirty- or both-  he was released from parole- or as he says “Off Paper” -  since then he has just been a cocky almost nonstop asshole-  he has this attitude like he's “UNTOUCHABLE”  now - because he would actually have to get caught and pick up a new charge- 

I used to  call his PO and turn him in and tell them all he was doing