#dollarsmade

    ‘ HUH  ?  MAYBE SO . . . ’     there she goes again  ,  thinking out loud  .  oftentimes she was  ignored   or other times  ,  she was relentlessly bullied  .   it’s not her fault she’s a dreamer  .  how else was she meant to remain sane  ?     ‘  sorry  . . .   that was  foolish  of me  . .   ’

    it’s his fault  ,  he thinks to himself  .   if only he hadn’t been such a coward  ,  hadn’t left school    &    was able to face mikado but he wasn’t  .  what a rotten friend he was  .  it’s all his fault mikado had ended up as he had  —————— he was supposed to be there for him  ,  he was supposed to protect him from the dark   &    unforgiving underground  .  that might have all been in the past now but that doesn’t stop masaomi from blaming himself  .  the guilt he harbors is still very much there  .  even to this day  .  he isn’t sure if it would ever fully go away  . 

     the words spoken by his friend ease the pain but it’s only a small consolation as far as the gang leader is concerned  .  he should have been there for him  !   the gentle hold he feels ‘pon his shoulder causes him to exhale a soft breath  ,  calming him down some  .  if only for a short moment  .  for an instant  ,  he doesn’t buy his words but  ——————  this was still the mikado he grew up with  .  no matter what happened between them  .  only suddenly now  ,  hues of burning amber are fuming    &     fists are promptly being shook at his sides  .   ❛  you idiot  !   what the hell were you even thinking  !   you’re a fucking idiot  . . if i mean so damn much t’ you why the hell did you shoot me  ?!   was it because izaya told you to  ?   dumbass  . .   you’re smarter than that  ,  mikado  !  ❜   he’s furious now as he shrugs the shoulder meant to comfort him so harshly off of his form  . 

      the gesture seems to catch him off guard for a split instant  .  but then again  ,  this is mikado   ;   his best friend  .  it was only natural that he’d want to look after him  .  the blond flashes the other a fond smile even in spite of how how utterly exhausted he is  .  ❛  thanks  ,  man . .  ❜    he replies  ,  taking the beverage gently in hand  .  truthfully however  ,  masaomi isn’t really sure if anything can cure how sleep deprived he is on an almost daily basis  .  mikado doesn’t know about that side of him   &   he never will if masaomi has any say in it  .