#doingtimeontheoutside

Majority of the time, I'm ok. Just living my life waiting for you to come home, or to receive the next letter. But when I'm alone at night, and the rooms full of thoughts... I just can't help but cry, you should be here. Holding me.

There's not a time i dont think about you, 14 more months of this sentence im serving. Its so hard being married & my husband getting sent to prison. I know the dreams i have of a bigger family (1 down 3 more to go lol), the nice wedding (we did a court house marriage) our extravagant life. He's my true only friend & everything. I wish he listened to me but i also fully understood that the work wasnt honest but it pays the bills. We've grown closer, stronger & thank God wiser together. We had some rough patches but i promise you that thats my baby. He's not doing time alone we're doing it together!

So true!

Shit, I have not slept in 2 days. I have a million things running through my head. I can not shut my brain off. I am seriously going through major depression. I miss Robert so bad, and he's been so quiet this week. I know he is sick of being in jail and wants to come home. I feel helpless. I don't know what to say and don't know what else I can do. I am faithfully at the jail every week visiting, I put $100 on his books every Sunday, I send him letters every single day, I always have money on the phone, I send his books, games, anything else he asks for from Amazon but I'm almost at a loss now (girls I'm not trying to brag or showoff please please don't think I am please!!!) I don't know what else to do. I send him letter after letter telling him how much I love him, and how supportive I am of him. I tell him about daily things going on here. I still include him in every decision making process that we face. He is still the head of this household, and he needs to feel like it! I don't know girls, maybe I'm just tired and over thinking tonight. I love my husband and just miss him more and more every day. Oh.....and I'm terrified he's gonna be a different person when he comes home. OK, I think that's it. Ladies you all really have no idea how much I value your support and kind words. *Remember ladies we're doing time too, we're all in this together.