#doingbetternow

today i can't get my head around the fact, that it will be christmas soon. this year went by so amazingly fast. is this good or bad, i ask myself. one may say, it is bad. time flies. the sand runs through the hourglass. well, i cant remember much details from the last year. no outstanding memories in my head. i sure had some but the human mind is lazy and should not be relied on. nothing lasts for ever. everything changes. in one year so much can happen. and only a few things maintain, unforgettable memories in our minds. this actually leaves me quite relieved. new occasions will come along, new experience will be made. the character will shape itself through time. become something new, adeptly and maybe wiser. change will come, and time is its driving force.

today i helped an old man. he fell of his bike. when i pulled him back on his feet again he started to talk dutch. i shook my head and said Duits. he stopped mumbling and just looked me in the eyes, took my hands, squeezed them and smiled. when i went home, i couldn't stopped myself from thinking, that at that moment i felt better and happier than at any other moment in the last 4 weeks.