#dog barks

I wish I had a community. Or a friend group. Fuck, even few friends that had any interest interacting with eachother. I wish I was even somewhat useful or helpful. I wish my art was better and I did it faster. I wish I had any impact. I wish I mattered in any more significant way. And I don't mean anything big I just wish there was literally anything visible I contributed to... well, anything.

I got hit with the random, aggressive depression with no clear reason. Ugh. I don't even. I don't know. I feel like there is no direction for me to go and I'm just stuck and life has nothing in store for me. I know it's not true but ugh.

Me: hey T how abt we finally got the mustache?

There was tick in my bathroom and now my whole damn apartment feels "unsafe" aaaargh I hate those fuckers