#documenting joy

1. the song that makes me less angry with you is corinne bailey rae "are you here?" but i spent two weeks crying to jhene aiko's "3:16" and found my way to this. this is growth right? being present in everything?

2. the conversation we finally have that makes sense, that helps me to let go of the resentment, the way you made me feel, all that ugly that began to harbour and fester and turned stomach poison

3. the forgiving that comes after it

4. then i picked my self up from my dark wood bedroom floor and packed a bag and left for the week. a friend's house and the quiet and calm of it all, or is it peace? all that prayer? God and God and God and how some people are always heaven sent/the divine. my friend's mother, her sister

5. re-reading that bell hooks' essay that turned epiphany and listening to this chandra talpade mohanty interview that remind me that despite having hated my masters programme i had a deep and intense passion for academia before and it will exist after because of women and ideas and necessary intellectualism that provides an alternative, critical and revolutionary outside-of-the-box thinking that is a necessary basis for activism

6. i will be travelling in 6 months time by the grace of God to some kind of home (nomadic bodies by way of history). dear india, i've been begging for you so long and all that architecture and then new york and creation. lots of it. with another creator, friend and inspirer

7. the halaqa we had to leave but packed out bodies of people wanting to do and be better and seek out and find god and themselves in the process was all i needed in the end to remind myself

8. islamic art over everything

9. sorority over everything