DNP Rewatch:Â Gay And Not Proud - Daniel Howell | YouTube Pride 2021
Date video was published: 06/25/2021 (X)
DNP Main Channel Rewatch: 443
A Dan video?!?! What is this?! Dan had filmed for this earlier in the month, all in a single day. Also, the tweet promoting this video is still Danâs pinned tweet at the moment.
0:05 - the âhello Internetâ to start...of course he had to. also I still canât decide if I like that jacket or not
0:20 - he is very scripted in this
0:56 - dramatic shot and lighting there
1:45 - I am sad that we still donât know what YouTube content he was planning that didnât pan out
2:00 - sometimes I forget that I am the same age as Dan
2:33 - Dan really cannot do time estimates đ he came out 2 years before this
3:00 - there is a lot of follow-up and re-stating of some of the same things he talked about in BIG
3:12 - he really did mention the âcommitmentâ thing a lot in 2021...still hard to say what he really means by that
3:25 - lol at the little kiss there
4:20 -Â âa metaphorical mind palaceâ indeed
5:51 - still canât get over Dan writing Phil into this as Phil just living in his mind đ„ș
6:09 - they actually look their heights in this
6:14 - Phil just distracting Dan with fun so he doesnât have to think about the hard things...and then Dan saying this bit was âradically authenticâ ...help
6:44 - and the implication that Phil will let Dan do the growing he needs to, but will just be there waiting
7:01 - WHAT?
7:18 - laughing that they must have had all this tour stuff in storage somewhere. I wonder how much they still have, or if they did a clean-out when they moved
7:37 - I had not noticed the little jar of notes âfor gloomy daysâ before đ„ș
7:47 - I like this mirror shot. Phil talked about the struggle/fear with media interviews while in the closet as well...that must have been very stressful for both of them
8:26 - I love that they had some actual fans be a part of this...when this part started I thought it might be really cringe but it ended up being so cute. I wonder if Dan pitched this idea to YouTube to include in this?
10:00 - Dan sounds less scripted here and I like it
10:08 - how much Dan says he has been impacted by meeting fans is something he has continually talked about with appreciation over the years
11:01 - this response was so good!!
12:05 - Dan seems like heâs really listening during this part too
12:48 - love Danâs dead-pan look at the camera here đ
13:10 - part of this YouTube Pride thing was asking people to submit video clips that would be included; it was very unclear how they would be used until it was put together here
13:27 - see, weâve gotten so many more stories like this from Phil pco, and so few from Dan...itâs nice to see him talk about his past with more authenticity. I love that he talks about this further later in the year in Hometown Showdown too
14:03 -Â âimagine if the boys kissedâ I love it. I think I actually find Dan more entertaining when he is less scripted
15:43 - oh yikes
16:27 - something he talked about in BIG
16:56 - the casual okay-to-say-something moment is relatable for me, actually
17:51 - lol at THAT being the one he chose to ânot answerâ
18:19 - I love the teasing here so much! and the tweet (which someone must have timed/planned to post at this moment when this video premiered)
19:25 - the Dil inclusion throw-back to TATINOF...just for fun I guess
20:23 - the sign and outfit from when he went to Pride in 2019
21:00 - it is interesting to here him talk more about how he felt about things while in the closet
22:04 - in all the photos from that day he looks SO happy
22:45 - âlike a dreamâ oh Dan đ„ș and his interactions with subscribers that day were so sweet!
23:40 - yes good points from Dan
24:04 - honestly I did not know who Will Young was before this video. he is from Wokingham too, so that was a nice tie-in with Dan
24:39 - and Dan talked in BIG too about wishing he had had more representation to look up to when he was young
27:08 - I donât know about the Dan-watching-awkwardly shots
27:19 - this whole bit seems a little awkward. I think itâs partially Dan sitting far away and Will standing so close to the camera? Was that a social-distancing thing maybe? I donât know but itâs slightly strange
28:32 - the conversation is actually a good one though
29:48 - and an interesting question from Dan, because he and Phil had talked about being worried that coming out would affect their careers
31:23 - I like the âitâs so boringâ point about continually coming out. that was one of Philâs points in COTY too, actually
31:50 - just from this conversation, I like Will and what he has to say a lot
33:30 - if a Pride event happens in my town this year I really want to go...weâll see if I get myself together enough
34:45 - Dan liked the âno oneâs born with shameâ point there
36:23 - there is really no consistency in what door he goes in and comes back out of for these segments
36:49 - lol at the llama reference
37:15 - foreshadowing of going in that door later, obviously
37:53 - the âsubscribeâ pop-up đ
38:06 -Â âthe only person in the world that tolerates me is called Philâ he just said it, huh?
38:29 - the parallel of this to Philâs answer to it in Answering Questions I Would Usually Avoid ...did Dan write this joke after seeing that Phil video
39:14 - I donât really follow what Tylerâs doing anymore, but heâs always seemed like such a good friend and supportive. I like all the collabs that both DNP did with him over the years
40:12 - someone describing Dan as quiet is so surprising...reserved makes some sense though
40:38 - big Dan sigh there
40:48 -Â âI just figured it wasnât my business until you said anything to meâ good friend Tyler!
41:22 - that is something, that for a while he was afraid to even interact too much with queer creators
42:06 - this must have been at VidCon 2019Â
42:21 - âa surprise wig partyâ I love it đ
43:08 -Â âthereâs no rush. when youâre ready, Iâm readyâ yeah I really like Tyler
43:41 -Â âmake out with somebody dressed as a dragonâ ...um no comment. I will say Dan is a expert at walking the line of what he says having one meaning/not meaning anything to the general public and a entirely different meaning to DNPâs long-time audience
44:15 - the first time I watched this I really thought this was a different person/an actor...does not look like Dan at all
44:40 - this feel like honest-Dan
45:08 - Dan loves a dramatic shot
45:49 - Dan had filmed this on June 8 and then a week later tweeted this. definitely not just a straight path forward for him though
46:10 - a reference to a bit with a furry in it (1, 2) that ended up getting cut from this main video
46:15 - I like Abigail so much! I was excited to see her in this
46:43 - Winnie the Pooh reference is a nice detail
47:54 - I think Dan said at some point that he scripted this so heâs talking to himself here
48:47 - getting a lot of actor-Dan in this as well
49:10 - the details of the posters in the background that Dan came up with are hilarious đ
49:36 - apparently emo Dan sent Phil âvividly back to 2011âł - love that he shared a photo of that with just Phil first before publicly (also his feet/socks here still slightly disturb me)
50:05 - a pco âmessage for my younger selfâ
50:40 - still cannot see that person as Dan for some reason. why does he look SO different to me?
51:00 - yeah I wasnât expecting to cry the first time I watched this
51:40 - doing the hardest thing and then immediately calling for Phil/going âhomeâ to Phil. đ really being loud about what Phil means to him. and the parallel to the end of THE WARDROBE
52:39 - and the asking Phil for advice
52:53 - Phil doesnât want Dan to change who he is now, and the âyouâll be fineâ...âIâll be fineâ đ„ș
53:13 - can see even more of the posters here!
53:38 -Â âall this stuff makes me the person that I am nowâ kind of echoing what Phil just said there
53:55 - and the final BIGÂ parallel
54:11 - so many references to his videos over the years
54:53 - thanking his followers as he so often has
55:54 - Dan just wanted to smash some things đ
56:27 - I do love the literal smashing of the closet
56:59 - big Dan smile and laugh to end it
Admittedly, this is not really what I was expecting from any of the description or promo that Dan did ahead of time. I enjoyed it the first time I watched it, but itâs not something I really rewatch. Even with the YouTube editing/control/etc., parts of it still feel like a very âDanâ video to me. (As in scripted, YouTube-persona Dan...he seems so different in live shows or even conversations with people heâs truly comfortable with.)
Dan also shared some outtake photos...the second one made me say âwhat the fuckâ out loud when he posted them. And then Phil sharing it too with some trivia bits about his part! đÂ



















