#dnp.t

so horribly gooey over phil's "when you smile you get that toast face where you look like a little toast" because it makes me think phil probably tells dan things like that all the time. makes silly affectionate little observations about him to tease but also to say I love you, as these things inherently do

the pinof 1 questions tiktok - sweetness all around. because on the one hand, veteran phannies know they kept the questions, we know about the memory box. on the other hand, new phannies might not. dnp made this tiktok knowing this and it ended up being an important note to the new fans and a chest-full reminder to the old ones. on the one hand a "you should know this about us. you should know how much this meant to us, before either of us even knew what it would entail professionally. you should know we love our past selves and every stage of our relationship they were in." on the other hand a "remember us showing you this? remember how we always loved each other around the words, knowing you knew anyway? remember how it really was the whole time? and look at us looking at it together now, on the other side of the line. everything out in the sun." I mean it's gorgeous. I love love & god I love that dnp are in it together

thinking about how different this holiday must feel for them. they’ve been dipping their toes into the experience of being out back home in london, yes, with the dinners etc—but holidays are made for unfettered enjoyment of your person’s company and finally, finally, they can lean in as much as they want. they can book any type of room and not have an explanation ready for someone who might know them. they could introduce each other as their partner and who cares if it ends up online. they could hold hands. they could kiss. they might not want to do any of that, but there’s nothing keeping them from it, if they did want to. and that makes all the difference.

my other goal for the year is to have more fun with you - kills me. firstly because phil would have never said something like this before, or even if he had, it would've been phrased so differently, less earnestly (less vulnerably). and secondly because three of the examples he gave of fun things they could do together - taking more trips, going to more cinemas, eating at more restaurants - are things you do in public. again. things they never did with any great frequency because of the risk involved. in 2026 one of phil lester's personal goals is to live more life with his life partner

okay but the confirmed version of the phil squat makes me anime watery-eyed it is like the cutest one because it would mean dan bends almost in half, tucks his head against phil's torso + wraps his arms around it in a tight hug, then whoof, hefts him up. it is also the scariest version like phil would be very high up, so just imagine his yelling and laughing. sorry I need a minute

the truest sign of dan howell's privilege is that sometimes phil will crack the most bone-bending joke you've ever heard in your life and that man dan howell won't even blink. won't even flinch. he has been exposed to this rare beauty every day for the past 16 years and he's sooooo Over It? incomprehensible and selfish. his greed disgusts me.

actually the more I think about it the more iconic (/neutral) last night's video becomes. like it or not. the concept of this being their first valentine's day out as a couple after SIXTEEN years of secrecy and speculation and everyone has been driving themselves crazy over what they might do to mark the occasion and dan and phil drop an actual vday-themed video and it's them speed-dating other men. they have the most awe-inspiring intuition for evil I've ever encountered