#dmt experience

the first experience i ever had was intense. i had been reading about astral projection and wanted to attempt it for just a few days at this point. i attempted it by repeating a mantra of sorts as i was falling asleep. i had also heard that a trick for achieving astral status was to stay up for a REALLY long time. that day/night, i had been up for a sum total of about 24+ hours altogether. as i was falling asleep, i repeated in my head, “i want to astral project” or something to that effect over and over again until i fell asleep.

i began having a normal dream. my husband and i were in a weird house that wasn’t our actual house, and we were just hanging out. i wasn’t lucid, so none of this seemed odd to me at the time. at some point in the dream, we decided we were going to go to bed. as soon as i laid down in the dream and closed my eyes to go to sleep, i woke up in the “real” world and i was in sleep paralysis.

i already knew what was going on because i had done so much research by this point so i didn’t freak out. i just rolled with it. i was laying there paralyzed with my eyes closed so all i was seeing was darkness. i began to see a light, off in the distance. just a small point of light. it started getting bigger and bigger and then all the sudden i was surrounded by light.

the lights were red, green, and yellow. i began to notice geometrical shapes flying around me. they looked like they were made of energy and they were the same colors as the light around me. at this point, i started to trip out a little because i never expected to experience this so soon. also by this time, i had done a lot of research on DMT and recognized that this experience was very likely a DMT experience. the shapes were morphing and interlocking in front of my eyes and i believe they began to form the flower of life. i was screaming in my head, “WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?”

i was incredibly lucid. as i was freaking out, the strangest thing began to happen - i started flying at warp speed down what seemed like a wormhole. the wormhole was made of the fabric and colors i mentioned earlier. lots of quickly rotating and morphing geometrical shapes that were flying so fast i couldn’t make them out. i started to become scared because the speed was so much, it really felt like being on a roller coaster.

because i was so scared, i cried out in my head that i wanted it to slow down. as soon as i thought that, i came to a complete stop inside this wormhole, or tunnel. i had the feeling of floating and being without a body. i could see up ahead of me that there seemed to be a bend or turn in the tunnel. i thought to myself that if i just made the journey slowly, i would make the turn and see what was there. as soon as i had that thought, i began slowly floating and came around the corner in the tunnel.

as soon as i went along the turn, it was like i blacked out for a second. everything just went black and then suddenly, i was in a completely new space. i immediately recognized this place as the place in Alex Grey’s painting, Net of Being.

it looked pretty much identical to this - same colors and everything. red, yellow and green. i was looking directly into the eyes and face of one of these beings - what Alex Grey calls the God Head. i wasn’t scared, i was just kinda looking at him. his eyes were yellow. there didn’t seem to be really any form of communication, but for some reason, i telepathically said to him, “no, i do not want to go further.”

as soon as i said this to him, i began to feel a powerful force pulling me backwards, and as quick as i came, i was being pulled back through the tunnel, up and out, and back to the darkness behind my eyes. i could feel my paralyzed body once again. i immediately became regretful that i had not continued forward and i tried to will the wormhole to open back up again so i could go. try as i might, it would not reopen.

it took a few minutes for my body to regain it’s mobility, and i opened my eyes. i fell back asleep very quickly, but i awoke a few hours later and retained every memory that i have explained here. it was absolutely astounding. i had never had such a vivid/lucid experience before and i was elated.

Second Experience

this experience was much less extravagant and had a more down to earth feel. i had woken up that day with my husband, eaten breakfast with him, and saw him off to band practice. i was still SO tired that after he left, i went back to sleep.

i think i had a few normal dreams before this happened. all the sudden, i “woke up”, or what i thought was waking up. my eyes didn’t open - i just suddenly had vision. i was laying in the bed the same way i went to sleep but my husband was standing in front of me, leaning over the bed. i noticed that something was odd about his clothes - they were slightly different colors than they actually are in reality. he was trying to speak to me, but all that was coming out of his mouth sounded something like the parents in charlie brown.

i couldn’t understand him, so i was speaking aloud, or telepathically?, asking him what he was saying. suddenly, it was like i blacked out for a second. when i regained vision, he was no longer standing there. at this moment, i realized that i was awake in the astral and something spooky was happening. i was saying in my head, “i’m here! i’m here!”

even though i had this realization, some primal part of me still wanted to go see if my husband was in another room. i decided that i would stand up and get out of bed to go find him. but, i didn’t move my body. i just had the thought that i would stand up, and my legs swung up out of the bed and my body moved on it’s own, putting me into a seated position on the edge of the bed, with my hands resting beside me. it was the most ODD feeling moving in this way - it was a very quick motion and felt like i was underwater.

sitting on the edge of the bed, i tried to stand. i could see my astral feet dangling there, with a strange greyish mist surrounding them. try as i might, i could not get my body to stand up. it felt as if i was underwater and that 10,000 tons of pressure was all over my body. in my head, i thought to myself, “i can’t do this!” and as soon as i had that thought, i felt my astral body being pulled back down onto the bed. i’m assuming i went back into my body because from there, everything went black and i fell asleep again.

when i woke up (for real this time, lol) i retained my entire memory from that experience. i immediately jumped on youtube and began looking for astral experiences. i found one guy’s video in which he explained exactly what i had felt and i knew then that i had truly projected, but had trouble getting away from the pull of my body.

Other Experiences

i have had a lot of partially successful projection episodes. it’s hard for me to remember what order they all go in, so i’ll just start explaining them as i remember them from here.

one time, i smoked a bowl of weed before i went to bed because i was going to try to induce astral projection while i was awake. i have a lot of racing thoughts and weed is the only thing that slows me down. i began to attempt it, repeating a mantra. my limbs and body began to go numb. my mouth was slightly hanging open, and i could feel the inside of my mouth get warm and numb.

i began to feel incredibly close to projecting. rolling waves of adrenaline and vibrations went throughout my entire body, more so in my tummy area. it was so intense that it began to give me a feeling of nauseousness. i kept telling myself that i was safe and white light was guarding me because this began to startle me a little.

my eyes were closed and i began to see white-blue flashes of light. then, everything increased seven-fold. my heart began beating like a drum, and overall the feeling of my body was of intense vibratory patterns/being incredibly numb. i had read that attempting waking astral projection would feel like this but i was scared as hell nonetheless. the way my heart was beating, i thought i was going to have a heart attack.

one of my arms began to feel partially separated and that’s when i freaked out. my astral body was leaving, but i was so scared that i pulled out of it. i got up, and was shaking for a few minutes with a racing heart. i recorded this incident in my journal sometime in 5/14.

another time, i did pretty much the same thing as mentioned above - smoked a bowl of weed and went to try to induce astral projection. this time, the bodily feelings were much less intense, but before i could get too far, a crazy buzzing sound permeated my silent head and scared the shit out of me. that experience was incredibly short-lived because the noise scared me so bad that i shot up in bed and discontinued trying.

on a different occasion, i wanted to astral project during sleep to the planet Neptune. at the time, i had discovered that i am a Pisces (not an Aquarius like my birth date suggests) and wanted to connect to Neptunian energies. so, i was repeating a mantra of sorts in my head as i tried to fall asleep, that i wanted to visit Neptune.

i never fell asleep, rather, a scene unfolded right in front of my closed eyelids as if a curtain came down. it literally looked exactly like that - as if a movie curtain had dropped in front of my eyes and all the sudden i was somewhere else. and it was the weirdest place EVER.

i was standing in front of my local Walmart. yes, Walmart, in the parking lot. i immediately thought to myself how absolutely bizarre this was, but at the same time, i realized i was floating so i was definitely astral bound. i began to try to fly in one direction for no reason at all, but i felt a powerful force pulling me from behind.

the force pulled me up and over the Walmart parking lot, over a gas station, into the sky. i began to realize that i was INCREDIBLY high up in the sky and i am afraid of heights so this really bugged me. i began resisting and just as i heard an airplane flying past me, i left the experience and woke up.

after i woke up, i became curious as to why the force pulled me in the direction that it did. then i began to wonder, what if it was pulling me to Neptune? i immediately jumped onto Google sky map, and found out which direction Neptune was in from my area at the time. i believe it was in a North Easterly direction at the time, or could have been Northwest, can’t remember now, but one of those.

my husband has a compass attached to our car so i had him drive me to Walmart and had him pull up into the specific direction i was standing when i was being pulled because i know the parking lot so well, i knew exactly where i was in the astral. i pointed to him the direction i was being pulled and we confirmed, with the compass, that i was being pulled by the force into the exact direction Neptune was in the sky at that time.

i had a few other short experiences where i would wake up in space for a few minutes. one time, i woke up while my astral body was going toward a bright light somewhere in my house. i went into the light and then found myself in the universe, surrounded by stars sitting in the lotus position. my astral body must go there to commune…but because i was lucid, being in space scared the shit out of me and i would often just black out and return to sleep. this has happened in similar fashions a few times but details are often blurry.

the last really astral experience i had was a bit ago - i woke up in sleep paralysis and somehow exited my body by floating up to the ceiling. i was stuck against the ceiling and couldn’t figure out why i didn’t just go through the ceiling. i was tumbling and rolling around up there - felt like being an astronaut. i was getting frustrated because i couldn’t control myself and couldn’t see very well because it was so dark.

my frustrations got me sent back into my body where it remained in sleep paralysis. i realized i could get back out of my body again and did so, doing the same thing and floating up to the ceiling, stopping against it and not being able to float through it. i just wanted to go outside and became very frustrated. my frustrations once again sent me back into my body.

back inside my vibrating, paralyzed body, i just sat there for what seemed like a few minutes. i began to have thoughts about that if i got out of my body again, i would see something scary and i started to psyche myself out. i quickly dismissed that because i knew if i projected those thoughts, i would experience my creations. not wanting to do that, i focused on how to get out of my body again.

i suddenly had the realization that i needed to spin out of my body and that’s exactly what i did. i must have been floating a few inches above my material body, and i began to tumble over and over, as if i was rolling over in mid-air. this movement somehow catapulted me out of my body and i landed on the floor and began to immediately walk out of my bedroom, determined to get outside.

as i was passing the corner of my bed, i saw my little dog loki whom was looking at me intently but he didn’t follow me. i knew then that i must truly be in my astral form because if i had been in my physical, he would have followed me because he follows me everywhere.

as i came out of my bedroom and going to exit my hallway into my living room to get to the front door, i saw a shadow being standing in the doorway of my hallway. i immediately recognized that i had created this being with my intrusive thoughts and told it not so politely to get the fuck out of my way. when i said this, it dematerialized and i walked into my living room.

i made my way for that front door with all the determination i had left after such an exhausting experience. i intended to just float right through the door like a ghost, finding myself outside. this didn’t happen. i slammed into the door with the softest thud i’d ever heard in my life. this frustrated me so badly that i was once again sent back to my body and that experienced ended from there.