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" oh, fuck off, dameron, " jyn scowls, shifting her injured foot out of his line of sight. despite her words, her tone is underlined with a hint of amusement ; though she usually only has disdain for the upper echelon of the alliance, dameron's all right : a good head on his shoulders, mostly gives decent orders, and doesn't take himself too seriously. as far as commanding officers go, he's likely one of the better ones, even if she wishes that she didn't have to work under anyone's thumb.

" and yet life goes on. let's get out of here. " cassian does not look at the ground. they cannot. they cannot focus on the world below their boots. the rebellion needs strong leadership. they are a strong leader. but that does not change the fact that they are only a human and sometimes they must deal with the drawbacks that come back with humanity.

“yeah, yeah, pa it’s me.” he keeps his voice soft, but there’s an edge to it, sometimes dark and wounded as he looks at his father where he’s lying out on the makeshift infirmary bed. when word had reached them on the current resistance base that yavin iv had drawn the attention of their enemies poe had jumped into his ship before he even had time to think or gather a team, supplies, any of it. he hadn’t been able to stop. luckily people had followed after him to help.

they weren’t going to leave anyone out to dry and poe had lost count of the ships he shot out of the sky in this fight. they’d come for his home. his father and his planet. 

none of his pilots had been lost, it seemed like they’d all be propelled by poe’s own rage and desperation. fighting like they knew their leader would never recover from this loss. 

“pa!” he howls, desperate to make his dad shut up and not ruin his whole entire life, at least that’s the way it feels right now. he’s not exactly a teenager anymore but still, he feels like a boy experiencing first love. “do you wanna yell that a little louder?” tugging on kes’s arm to pull him away from anyone that might be listening, poe tries to turn his blush into something slightly more becoming of a man his of age and training.

he mostly fails.

poe was chewing on his lip, a nervous habit he hadn’t managed to totally break in his adulthood but he certainly didn’t do it as much as he had when he was a boy. but he’s listening intently to his dad and he needs something else to do, something physical that will help him control the energy in his body. anxiety, nerves, guilt, whatever it is. he needs to move, but they’re in the ranch house so he doesn’t have the space he would normally. he settles for chewing his lip, bouncing both his legs up and down and nodding far more intently then he actually needs to. “how do you know what...no, wait.” he pauses his speech, trying to think of how to say what he’s thinking.

he trusts his dad more then anyone else alive, but with this, he’s still afraid of what the response will be.

poe nods, because it’s what he’s been doing whenever anyone speaks to himself recently and not because he truly trusts his father’s word. force, he wishes he trusted his father’s words. despite knowing better, it feels like there is no way anyone could understand the pain in his head, it radiates out into his body every movement he makes. the beating he’d taken when he was captured paled in comparison to what came after. 

DMRN+ is a great place to present ideas and get feedback, this year we’ve got a few things that we’re going to be talking about that range from Artificial Intelligence, through to Opera, VR and the Digital Humanities. Come over and say “hi” if you’re there. Alan Chamberlain, David De Roure, Steve Benford, Chris Greenhalgh and Adrian Hazzard, Maria Kallionpää, David Weigl, Kevin Page and Pip Willcox "FAST forward to the semantics of design for musical performance", DMRN+ 12, Digital Music Research Network, 19th December, London, UK. 

Alan Chamberlain, Alessio Malizia  and David De Roure (2017) "An agent on my shoulder: AI, privacy and the application of human-like computing technologies to music creation", DMRN+ 12, Digital Music Research Network, 19th December, London, UK. 

Alan Chamberlain, Maria Kallionpää and Steve Benford (2017) "The art and ‘science’ of opera: Composing, staging & designing new forms of interactive theatrical performance", DMRN+ 12, Digital Music Research Network, 19th December, London, UK.

Iain Emsley, Alan Chamberlain and David De Roure (2017) "Hearing the humanities: Sonifying Steele’s Shakespeare", DMRN+ 12, Digital Music Research Network, 19th December, London, UK.