#dizzy entry

i will admit the way i interpret them is a lot more shallow and for self indulgent tropey purposes (not to say i dont like analyzing them at all or like to find nuance in both of them obv), however i do really like your interpretation of them . i never really thought about joel being vulnerable around scott to keep him straight (meaning not make him "weaker") for a lack of better terms? i see him as putting his guard up Even more around scott in public , in a private setting however he does feel comfortable around him but because of the circumstances theyre in its their safe space . character wise i like to think because joel is the super macho masculine guy he basically is on the down low when it comes to scott and their relationship . on the battlefield he hates his guts and wants everyone to know that but scott Knows . and realistically it does make sense that scott would resent him for that , treating him like a secret and how abrasive joel is towards him when scott really hasn't done much to warrant it ! joels very ashamed of his own sexuality and own individual expression that he just puts up this front that he could NEVER be weak , including confusing his sexuality as a weakness . i p much agree w everything on the post !! your analysis on them is v juicy yum... good fucking soup .....

i kinda see scott as this guy who has expectations set up for himself . he has to stick to his morals even in the most intense situations , he has built trust w others and tries his best to lookout for those on his team . however there are bits and pieces that slip out where hes like "maybe i can be the drama . as a treat" but most of the time he doesnt unless its at a point where all hell has broken loose . what more harm could be done? overall hes got a moral code . he has to live up to that and keep up this facade despite sometimes fighting the urge to become insane like the rest . its a killing game after all . with joel i see him like you said a wildcard . he gives into his emotions when hes panicking or when hes enraged and just throws out all logic out the window . of course he has his moments but for the most part his bloodlust is his downfall . one of the aspects i like abt majorbeans is i see scott being tempted by joel , despite joel always going after him and trying to kill him . he sees joel behave the way he does , his power and his freedom and despite it being an utterly wreckless display , he just sees him having fun and giving into the desire to just Kill . and joel absolutely hates that scott is as observant and strategic about his way of survival . hates the fact that he can keep a level head through all of this , hates that even though he isnt as strong as him , keeps getting away with living ! there r more stuff in my head and i cant rly word this properly im in the middle of a fortnite match w a friend so its all off the top off my head but if anyone would like something more coherent i can write out a draft for my full thoughts . but to wrap it up .. those aspects i think keep pulling them back to each other .. they both want a taste of what they have .. but their rivalry (mostly one sided if im being honest dont throw tomatoes at me) is what stops them from being an unstoppable force lol . the day they team up for a season is the day i can peacefully pass away . I NEED TO SEE THEM TEAM UP !!!!! these two have been plaguing my mind for months .. but yea those r my thoughts not super coherent but i hope it gets the idea across .