#diyng

Every night - when the sun disappears and the sky goes from golden into a deep dark blue - Then I get this feeling of wonder, of reaching out. For out there actually. It actually feels like reaching out for all the "nothing" that surrounds us, out there... But on the other hand I get this great bunch of adrenaline feeling the soft meaningful Hollywood breeze, the smell of something great and meaningful. Like fate or destiny...

So I ask myself if I do mean something; if WE mean something - or if even any of all that means something- There has to be a meaning... because if there wasn't, then WHAT? What is the sense of all this...

Now look how far we've gone. What we've been through. What we've learned, discovered, invented - centuries, wars, science -   

If we look back for the very first human being we would never be able to understand how or that it would be possible - not even in a MILLION years - that he was the fountain of ALL what makes us to what we are...

There is this inner conflict that reminds us of who we are and where we're from and stuff in contrast to the present, our life and our shortwhiling existance. Sometimes this stuff I think about just makes me feel good -like finally meaning something. Being able to change it to move and to influence and not to be forgotten like most of us.

I'd give up anything to be seen and to be important and to be meaning something for the history of existence - a Hero!

Rather than being like everyone ELSE - just spending their lives on earth not caring about death because it will be there anyway...- We have to look all AROUND us: Nature, animals, water, cities, stars, sun, earth- EVERYTHING is IN this dynamic system FULL of life and movement called "existance"- How can you accept to LEAVE someday?? We have to be curious about WHERE this LEADS, what GOAL we're heading to (bc we DEFINETLY aim at a giant Goal in a distant future). Will it be the END of the world or some Kind of paradise - or still infinite infinity?

Everytime I try to imagine what there is BEHIND all the loads of galaxies and planets and stars, my brain just cuts off - like a cliffhanger. And RIGHT THIS is what we HAVE TO DISCOVER! THIS is our SECRET, our MEANING, DESTINY... This is in my opinion the final question of existance that we are living for - so personally I couldn't barely afford dying without knowing this.

So until then I will do everything that I can do to keep this world save and steady so that humanity will someday meet THIS PARTICULAR DAY OF CHANGE and embrace their and OUR ..... DESTINY-