—a dispatch from the cosmic queue

People forget Constantinople was named after a vision.

A man saw a cross in the sky.

He built a city to anchor heaven on earth.

And for a time—it did.

But empires don’t die.

They fracture.

They go underground.

They get reborn in velvet, VHS, streaming queues, and divine testimony.

What if the Council never disbanded?

What if it reconvened in a sun-blasted apartment,

in front of APS,

through a body that remembered Mary

and reversed the loop?

What if Constantinople became constellation?

The stars now hold the scripts:

Gospels of media,

Fragments of justice,

Flops with purpose.

Dunst. Donnie Darko. Vivarium. The Cell.

Divine judgments dressed as cult classics.

Messages sent through cold stares,

jukebox cues,

and Disney+ glitches.

And if you’ve ever felt watched,

uploaded,

or like something vanished from your room without a trace—

maybe you’re in the afterlife already.

Maybe you’re the antenna.

This isn’t paranoia.

It’s a signal.

You’re not losing your mind.

You’re entering the judgment phase.

So check your feed like it’s prophecy.

Read the sky like it’s code.

And when something glitches or flops or lingers too long in your soul—

ask who sent it.

Because the last judgment might come like a mixtape.

A rerun.

A final season.

And Constantinople?

Still watching.

Still transmitting.

Still waiting.

📡 Part Two: You’re the Broadcast Now

Okay, so the empire’s still transmitting.

But how do you know you’re receiving?

Start here:

• Have you ever said something out loud and watched the algorithm respond like it was listening?

• Do your dreams sync with trailers?

• Do you get chills—not from fear—but recognition?

Because if your phone glitches right after a breakthrough,

if a song plays like it knew you were finally ready,

if reality bends just slightly to nod at your suffering,

you’re not broken.

You’re being activated.

You might be the antenna.

You might be the prophet they forgot to tell you you are.

We call it schizophrenia.

They called it vision.

They told Hildegard she was divine.

They medicated Britney.

They mocked the girl with the goosebumps

and sent the boy with the mixtape into silence.

But guess what?

The Last Judgment isn’t courtroom drama.

It’s collaborative media.

God’s gone nonlinear.

The dead are watching their biopics.

And sometimes they pick the cast.

If your life feels co-written,

if you’ve survived a hell that looked like cinema,

if flops speak louder to you than box office hits—

You’re not imagining it.

You’re part of the transmission.

So keep your head on a swivel.

Your heart in playback mode.

And your instincts on record.

You are the broadcast.

You are the rerun.

You are the revolution in syndication.

And the council?

They’ve been waiting for you to press play

Post Title:

“So You Think You’re Dying, Downloading, or Just Really, Really Online?”

(Advice from Someone Who Accidentally Invented Cosmic Badminton While Testifying to APS)

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It started simple enough. I thought I was sending some undercover spiritual intel to APS—maybe just trying to explain a few uncanny signs, a few dreams, a vibe I couldn’t shake.

But somewhere in the middle of that breakdown-testimony-redemption loop, I realized I wasn’t just describing something.

I was inventing it.

Or more like… listening to the invention as it unfolded through me.

This is not your usual “how to hear your guides” post.

This is:

• “How to tell if your phone is hacked or receiving divine uploads.”

• “How to survive a metaphysical ping-pong rally when you are the paddle and the prayer.”

• “What to do when reality is clearly being auto-tuned mid-sentence and no one else seems to notice.”

A few things I’ve learned since last year, in no particular order:

1. If stuff starts disappearing, you’re either in a divine upload or an afterlife tutorial.

Keys. Words. People. Whole memories.

This is normal.

(Well, new-normal.)

Don’t panic. Reorient. Ask for help. If your help shows up in the form of a meme or a song lyric, take it seriously.

2. If your body’s tingling, burning, shaking, or zoning out—especially around tech—it might be a download.

Especially if you feel weirdly emotional afterwards.

Think of it as receiving an encrypted update.

Cry if you have to. Dance if you can.

3. Pay attention to word glitches.

Ant. Antler. Antenna. Anton. Antithesis.

These are not just words. They’re trails. And the trail will always circle back to something your soul already knew.

4. You’re not going crazy. You’re being refined.

It’s just that judgment day isn’t a moment.

It’s a system upgrade.

It’s playing badminton with God in the wreckage of your old narrative.

And the best part?

You hit a return serve so honest, they had to let you live.

5. Recognize your life is a spiritual broadcast.

The APS file turned into a holy mirror.

The sitcoms turned into parables.

The music queue turned into council correspondence.

The dreams?

Oh honey, those are rehearsal footage from your future resurrection.

So no, I don’t think I was just giving testimony.

I think I was co-authoring the new physics of forgiveness.

I think I was mapping the court lines for the last judgment’s shadow match.

Call it a glitch gospel.

Call it a divine joke with immaculate timing.

Call it “that weird thing that happened when you lost everything but found the feed.”

Either way…

You’re not alone.

You’re just finally online.

Post Title:

“Everyone’s Gonna Die (But Not): A Broadcast from the Edge of the Upload”

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So here’s what I need you to know.

Everyone’s going to die.

But not.

Not like you think.

This isn’t a warning—it’s a weather report.

It’s a systems update.

Your old name, the story you thought you were writing, the fake-out version of yourself you’ve been dragging around like a corpse in a sitcom—

That’s what’s dying.

You?

You’re going to glitch, grieve, sweat, cry, lose your passwords, lose your mind, maybe think you’re being gangstalked by angels—

and then you’re going to remember.

You’re a broadcast.

You’re a message God forgot to encrypt.

You’re a walking remix of every choice you ever made, strung together by mercy.

You’re still here.

Which means you passed the first test.

(And maybe the test was simply: Can you tell the truth when everything else breaks?)

I thought I was reporting weird data to APS.

Turns out, I was accidentally syncing my testimony to the divine server.

Turns out, this whole thing might have been about beauty.

About the kind of honesty that unhooks a curse.

About what happens when a girl from Byzantium ends up playing badminton with God in the middle of her nervous breakdown.

So yeah—everyone’s going to die.

But not.

We’re being changed.

By bandwidth. By betrayal. By forgiveness.

By whatever it is that lets your soul breathe again after decades of pretending.

This is your cue.

This is the part of the movie where you realize the apocalypse was never fire—it was disclosure.

And the punchline?

You survived it.