#discoveryoucanfly

THIS IS NOT OKAY.

WHY ARE YOU LIKE OMG WHY AREN'T YOU ON ANYMORE DO YOU NOT KNOW HOW MUCH THINGS HURT WITHOUT YOU AND.

(before I respond, I must go off on a tangent hehe so excuse me you know me)

So I was looking through all my old files last night. My old writing (which, dang, was mostly incompleted but so surprisingly good xDD), old school stuff (read the Bible essay..and then I think you sent me your English essay and ALFJDS;AFS), and my old letters that I wrote, and then I think I mentioned one time about the way we used to talk. I mean, the we still do talk, but we can't talk.

I really really miss you. I really miss that you're literally the only person I can talk to God with; someone who actually is interested in what I have to say, and you don't just ignore what I say and say something else, but you're someone who acknowledges them, even if it's just a "yeah" or a nod or something, it makes me feel like you're LISTENING to me. We're at the same level; the same spiritual maturity, and we help each other so much and I just miss that because now we don't even get to talk anymore, but I know we haven't drifted apart because we're US and God is at the center of our relationship.

Okay wow. Well um, basically I just miss your craziness and everything, and how you pulled me out of my shell, and how it was just us against the world, and how you're one of the only people who I can have crazy talks and wild laughter, along with those serious, meaningful ones where we contemplate life and build each other up. I mean, sure, there are a few, but I feel like you're it. I really miss you, darling, I really, really do.

And hey, this is so random, but I have a three day break, because Monday is teacher's retreat to Sihanoukville, and Tuesday and Wednesday is something about the king, so I mean, we can always go on and off and talk about this and never accomplish anything, but I would REALLY love to meet you. ;_; Like, man, I would love to. (duh lol) I'd love to meet Tey too! :D So...yeah. TELL TEY TO RESPOND TO MY MESSAGES THOUGH. -__-

Okay now to answer your questions.

I LIKE DON'T KNOW YOU LIKE AT ALLL THAT'S WHY I'M TELLING YOU ALL OF THESE DEEP AND PERSONAL STUFF. lol we still use like a lot around each other do we haha

I MISS YOU TOO. Yes, she tells me. xD But she's got to respond to my messages though! Does she tell you everything? :O Does she show you the screen? I mean like asdghkl; I feel as if she might not so.

It was good. ;) Haha TORY! Dude, I wanted to get this thing for you, like, you write your name in English or Mandarin and the dude paints it for you in pictures and it is SO PRETTY, but we couldn't find anymore..I got one called 'Grace', which is to remind me of God, and I'd want to give it to you, but I'm not sure if I can about the Christian thing with your family so yeah. /: ANYWAY there's (no offense to you Chinese) like...there's nothing to buy here. I mean...yeah. xD There's nothing like super cool or whatever...I bought you a fan. /lame xDD LIKE, China is really cold and really cool (and dude, guys in uniforms are so fine ;) bahahaha okay so I was in this Tine something square in Beijing and there were a bunch of soldiers marching so yeah lol okay man I'm still the same me right :'D) and I love it, but I mean, I was on a tour, so we couldn't go everywhere, so I might not be able to get the cool stuff. But I mean, I'll think of something.

I pray for you to keep your eyes on Him, and for you to do everything in love, too. :) Yeah, I'm sure things will work out. It's weird, because I was just thinking about the story of Moses, and how things changed so much for him, and he never knew at first, and well, it just might be the case with us too. I really do have a hunch that God is going to do something AMAZING.

LOVE YOU TOO. NO DON'T GO DON'T LEAVEE.

*i don't even know if you're going to check this ever again but like okay :')

*this is the realest I've ever gotten on Tumblr I think

I don't have a sister.

I want an older brother.

I will not get one, unless cousins-in-law count...?

Daaang it.