#dining rambles

Which is good news, because it gives me hope that I'll feel physically better in the nearby future (and that will also help with my—luckily already better than a few months ago—mental health 😊)

I'm also hella anxious about the surgery of course, on many levels. But the stars really aligned because there is so much new IWTV content coming out that my mind is happily preoccupied with that and has less space to worry and fret. 😄 Immaculate timing haha.

We don't even see Frank during his first scene, just the absolute bloody carnage he causes

In Kastle's first scene together he chases her and shoots in her direction with a shotgun; the classic beginning of any romance story 😂

Frank bludgeoning a pawn shop owner to death with a baseball bat because the guy tried selling him kiddy porn 🥰🥰 When will your faves lmao

Karen being all 'I'm not saying he's a good person but anyone of us could be the Punisher' to Matt, like she was getting Frank even before properly meeting him 🥺

Frank stitching himself up like a true badass while calling Matt 'Red', somehow making it sound like a cute affectionate nickname 😆

'Don't get all sweet on me now, Frank.' Suddenly I understand why Fratt has 1,899 works on AO3 👀

The hospital bed scene 🥰🥰🥰 ItsAllComingBackToMeNow.mp3

'You were never in any danger.' 🥺 and at the same time 🙃

Him calling her 'ma'am' ❤️

Karen: Frank deserved a little murder, as a treat. Matt: WHAT????

Karen sitting next to Frank during his trial. That's his emotional support person (She's also poor Foggy's 😂)

That prison fight got me all 🥵🥵🥵🥵

Episode 9 + a delicious fic on AO3 inspired me to write a first draft of Fisk/Frank non-con, lemme know if I should finish it and post it here 👀

'No, Matt! I'm not yours to protect.' That's right Matt, she found someone better, someone loyal and not a fuckboi like you 😏😆

Karen being heartbroken thinking Frank died on that ship, while Mahoney thinks he's comforting her by telling her Castle's dead and she's safe now 💔

The song in the car, letting her know he's there and will save/protect her 😭 (which he did via car crash, but still 😂)

Frank spraypainting the vest. He's an ARTIST~~ lmao

In the season finale when the shooting begins, everybody ducks down and stays down except for Karen, who slowly rises up because she suspects it's Frank (and she's right)

January

February

March

10000 Zinnen (Super Talk) Barbie (1994)

Bubble Angel Barbie (1994)

Girl Power - Baby Spice (1997)

And had an absolutely amazing time. It's an overwhelmingly beautiful country and I had so much fun with my friends. ❤️ Here are some photo highlights (for Dublin see my other post).

View of the Irish Sea and Wicklow Mountains from Dalkey Hill

We visited many castles, some more haunted than others 👻

A vegan scone and chai latte in Galway 🥰

We climbed Diamond Hill in Connemara National Park 💪

Found beautiful flowers in the rocky landscape of the Burren

Drove the Ring of Kerry, along with two other peninsula loop drives on different days, and saw loads of gorgeous sights along the way, like at this stop we made at Waterville

Even the view from the rental car was breathtaking most of the time!

Due to weather conditions we did not make it to the top of Devil's Ladder, but it was still a great, if wet, adventure!

Oh and we stayed in some incredible Airbnbs (this one used to be a gatehouse 🤩)

We also went on an AWESOME eco marine tour, but I'll make a separate post about that.

Some really good stuff happened this year. I went on two absolutely wonderful holidays (to Ireland and Southern Germany) with cherished friends. Achieved my dream of seeing basking sharks in the wild. Embraced my inner Barbie. And am now a permanent employee at the job I started at last year, which is a great position to be in.

Of course life isn't all pink and dinosaurs. My Crohn's disease started acting up again, increasing my fatigue and decreasing my appetite (don't worry, I love food so I'm still getting enough calories). Which meant another MRI and maybe a change in medication (will know more next week). Also lost some more muscle mass, and experienced hair loss due to my meds, doing wonders for my self-esteem (not). At prolonged times throughout the year I found it difficult to engage in fandom and family/friendships, feeling pretty apathetic and low, unmotivated, negative, lonely, self-hating and a lot less joyful than I used to be.

Luckily my neighbourhood coach took my mental state seriously and applied me for the Social Support Act, so I can get coaching from an organisation that specialises in coaching people with autism. (A lot of my self-loathing stems from feeling different/abnormal/socially challenged, also I struggle with finding balance between alone time and socialising, especially with the added Crohn exhaustion.) I'll be starting this January, and have been trying really hard not to fall back into another downward spiral because I'm sick of feeling that low. It's a daily struggle, but better mental health is definitely worth fighting for!

Looking forward to spending King's Day (a Dutch holiday) and Charles's coronation in a ✨️Republic✨️ 😎 *insert guillotine emoji here* 😂

Maybe I'll share some holiday pics if anyone is interested. 😊 I've never been to Ireland before and I'm very, VERY excited! 🇮🇪🤩💚