#digitaldiarycore

tumblr isn't the political climate to complain abt this ik so don't even im just. I need to rant . the household straggot actually went thru with deep throating Uncle Sam and he's for realsies leaving for basic training i'm so . im so. distraught. i understand why he thinks he's doing what's best for him. he's stupid and hes misguided and he thinks he's gonna get out of bumfuck and change the system from the inside and im so frustrated. ive known him for months and he's done more for me than people I've known for years. lit the str8 best friend of some guy I met on tinder. and this is the third time someone ive considered "one of the best people I know" has fucked off to be an imperial cog and it makes me feel so. sick . it's all so sick!!!!

ive been kinda seeing a new person lately and i feel so weirdly guilty for moving on from my last relationship even tho im not the one who ended it it's literally in my right to do whoever and whatever as soon as i want. but like . why do i feel so guilty.

I think I've made new friends I think

someone i know distantly through quite a number of mutual friends committed suicide by cop at 8am yesterday morning. i keep thinking about it and it's not my place irl to talk about it so here i am.

when u lay it all out like dat i really do deserve some recognition even if it's self recognition for not killing myself bc what the fuck. 🧟‍♂️

finding out all my friends are doing friendsgiving (I am not invited) bc my roommate (invited) asked me to help him make a pie for "an event" (friendsgiving) and when i pressed he said "a thing me and [ALL OUR MUTUAL FRIENDS. WE ALL WORK TOGETHER] are doing, like friendsgiving. I need to make a pie for it. Can you help me" I CAN KILL YOU

?? snapchat randomly banned my device mid conversation w my plug this is literally fucking 9/11. a decent, decent chunk of photos from middle and highschool are gone AND i basically just lost an 8 year old contact log. it's literally just snap but i wanna fucking cry rn i have 2 irls on here and deadass, 5 phone numbers (includes roommate and partner). i can't make a new account i literally can't contact most of my friends right now im gonna lose it