My fifteenth birthday... He was hyper, a jokester, super smart, and wayyyyyy too young to leave. He was in college, in love and very much in shape. Loved the gym, his dad and was a total momma's boy. I once heard I was his favorite cousin and felt my heart so small when I heard, but not as small as it feels today. There's so much guilt thinking I could have called more, texted more, maybe even prayed more. Did life get in the way? Was I too preoccupied to hear the signs? Why wasn't my heart tugging?! No warning of something happening with him. The oldest of the grandchildren, the apple of my cousin's eyes, our pride and joy. I hope he left knowing how loved he was and how much he matters to us. RIP @cmoore_96 10 years exactly younger than me... You were supposed to be better than me, but I'll do better for you. So many plans unfinished... Still so much guilt #stillinshock #didyoureallyleave