#dextromethorphan

I was thinking abt making a zine-style anecdotal guide to recreational dxm since I know a lot about it but like. I'm the LAST person to take advice from. like

I've been using for less than a year

I've never tried freebase or poly so I can't speak on those

I got addicted even though it's not supposed to be habit forming

My tolerance is so high that I need to potentiate 600mg to get to a low 2plat

I was already on ssris when I started using and I still am

I've used back to back for multiple days straight, multiple times

I've suppressed my nervous system so bad my blood oxygen was below 90% for days

I've suppressed my nervous system so bad I needed canned oxygen (and thank god I had it on hand bc I don't think I would've been able to call for help)

^^ neither of those things were able to convince me to stop

like I enjoy giving advice about it when asked, and I do give ACTUAL advice rather than just telling ppl what I do, but I am NOT the person to look at for an example of how to use it 😭😭😭

semi-related, but I remember watching an old lefleigh video and she was like "if I had free access to m0lly in middle school, I would've been using it like weekly!! which is really bad for you!!" and I immediately realized how cooked I am bc I'm post-graduation and didn't have the self-control to not use COUGH MEDICINE more than twice a week 😭😭

listening to a song I wrote during peak dxm addiction and lowk it is NOT helping rn. why did I make it sound so fun 💔 like I do acknowledge how it ruined my self perception and ability to enjoy life but I also made it sound so fun 😭😭

also how tf did I put the word "potentiate" in a song holy shit

*I'm 47kg 157cm

5th trip (450 mg) mid 3-plateau

I took 15 gel caps and 1 allergy pill at about 1am, I started scrolling on my phone waiting for the effects, nothing special happened.

About 4am i started to feel dizzy, kind of a drunk feeling, my body felt heavy but my pupils were normal and I could speak well.

Then I layed on my bed and I dont remember how much time exactly happened but I closed my eyes and I started seeing things going very fast, some kind of fractals. That's when I knew the trip started, I was conscious that i was on drugs and I was listening to music, my body felt every beat and it felt as if I was on a trampoline and every beat made me jump. My jaw was shaking a little bit kind of a chewing movement, it hurt a bit.

Everytime I opened my eyes I saw double, but I didn't saw any visuals, so I kept my eyes closed and I turned off the music cause it was too much for me, imagine Ruprecht 4500 was playing throughout all of this. It was cool ngl.

Then I opened my eyes and saw myself in the mirror to see how everything was going, my pupils were BIG and I was smiling. My phone was heavy and when I opened Instagram I saw my chats with "TV static".

When all of this had happened it was about 6am, but for me it felt like it had been more than that.

I thought about sleeping cause it was already clearing up, I really dont know if I even slept or not, I couldn't distinguish time.

I woke up at 9am and my pupils were still big, I saw everything kinda blurry but I could speak well.

I just fell asleep again till 11am, my pupils were normal, i felt normal, I knew it was over.

So yeah overall rating 9/10 i like it, I would do it again, only thing I dont like about dxm is that it ruins ur brain if u use it too much, but thats pretty much all drugs if u abuse. I do feel a little bit foggy and my short term memory isnt good but I dont know if its placebo.

1st "trip" (90 mg) low 1-plateau

I took 90mg gel caps and it didnt do anything but dilate my pupils a little bit. Also these caps had ambroxol so I wouldn't recommend it.

2nd trip (540 mg) mid high 3-plateau

Took 540mg of syrup, I waited for about 4 hours but i didn't took allergy pill and it just made me very itchy and it left me with rashes all over my body.

But then I suddenly threw up all over me, i couldn't see or move well and that made me do that, I kind of blacked out and it was as if I were in 3rd person, I couldnt do any kind of movement.

I did trip a little after I threw up, I saw fractals in my bathroom wall and i had sound hallucinations, I heard as if I was on the forest i heard flying bugs very very loud, and I kind of saw black after, it lasted very little.. but that was awful. I think it was the fact that I felt so bad that I couldn't let go and that ruined my trip.

Not to mention i had to change my pjs and clean my mess fully tripped out.

3rd "trip" (150 mg) low 2-plateau

It was at my friends house, I had gel caps, i waited like 4 hours for the effects and i just felt a little drunk when walking. My pupils were normal, I think.

No photos.

i miss my robo era sm i looked like a zombie