#devil's thoughts

Anyway

Unfortunately for me, it was about Logan—I am NOT tagging him but then again he's gonna be lurking in his notifications and see this anyway—and he just had me pinned down as im (obviously) covering my mouth because I was smiling like a dork and i get embarrassed when I'm smiling so freely, especially when flustered

But anyway, I was pinned down and he was being an IDIOT, pretending to be the tickle monster and just singing dumbASS nursery rhymes as hover above either one or two of my worst spots (ex. Hickory Dickory Dock, itsey bitsey spider, ring around the rosie, I'm not naming anymore songs. Pmo.), trying to get me to pull my hands down, only for him to CHEAT and shove his hands under my arms, which—obviously—makes me slam my arms down and start cackling like a mad man

Sigh he read the teases that gets to me on my tease list and was taking advantage of the fact I can't handle countdowns and just saying stupid shit, ESPECIALLY saying shit like “ Show me that pretty smile ” and “ I can't understand you over all that laughter ”

HE SAID THAT SO MUCH LAST NIGHT WHICH PISSED ME OFFFFFUH

ANYWAY.

He's just wrecking my shit, laughing at me because I kept trying to threaten him through my cackling, which was getting loud at that point. And I started hiccuping, which only made him laugh harder

And like last night, in the dream he kept trying to make me say stuff WITHOUT covering my mouth because he wanted to see me smiling. And his voice went so soft which PISSED me off because it was making it so much worse to concentrate

He kept trying to make me say sentences with “ Tickle ” in the sentence, but I couldn't say or handle HEARING the word so I just kept refusing, begging him to let me say something else. It was either “ I want you to tickle me ” or “ I love you as my ler ”

and it made me so mad cause I was just giggling and hiccuping, pleading with him to pick something else for me to say but he just kept refusing

He just kept forcing me to put my hands behind my back so I can't cover my face and I just kept refusing because I can't do that, I NEED to hide my face or I'll actively combust

And eventually I guess he got tired of me yanking my hands back up to hide my face and just pinned my wrists down, listening to my panicked shrieks and pleading, saying that I'll stop covering my face that I just need a SECOND 🤬

And he just decides to stare at me, smirking down at me until I eventually say what he wanted to hear. And every time I hid my face into my shoulder, he'd just turn my head back so we'd make eye contact again, which, embarrassingly, caused me to let out DUMB squeaky giggles

I eventually said what he wanted to hear and he just wrecked my shit as a "reward" 🙄 saying shit like “ Good boy ” and “ You did so good ” as I'm laughing / cackling away

And that's when I woke up 🥹

I'm finna kms

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