#detecitvebat

Because the first thing that comes to his mind when he's listing what he likes about me is my looks.

1. I know I'm hot, I do not require validation from men. 

No, detecivecat is still AU. I'm such a multi-shipper that's probably what you'll see happen here. A lot of multiple universes where Selina can do what she wants.

I am having trouble recalling when I said I hated him. Perhaps since you know my words so much better than I do, you can remind me.

What I do remember saying is I am not in love with Bruce anymore, and that I don't think I've been in love with Bruce for a very long time.

Would you like me to go over all of our history dear anon, should I lie bare everything I think so that you have a better understanding of my motives?

Well, I don't know you, but I feel like I owe this to you.

Let's see....

Bruce and I had this magical ability to be good for each other, to be in love, to be soul mates for exactly a night. We were good in bed, we were good when we were in my apartment, we were good when we got to live in this world apart from everyone else. There, in that world, we were perfect.

He would tell me he loved me and then... he would leave the house in the morning, and the real world would press in on him. And he'd talk about how it did matter. How we weren't in a relationship. How people (Talia, and Damian whom I'll touch more on in a moment) should calm down.

I'm an odd creature I think when you say that you love someone - things shouldn't go back to normal afterwards. Saying those words means something to me. When you say 'I love you' it should mean that this is a girl you value in your heart, a woman who is precious to you.

In the span of 24 hours I could hear "I love you" and "It meant nothing."

Our relationship had mood swings to say the least.

Then there was the fact that he has a son who legitimately hates me. Despite the fact that we've only interacted a few times, and have common ground in the fact that we both like cats he hates me. He hates me passionately.

That's not something a father can over look when in a relationship. It's not something a father should over look when in a relationship.

Then there's Talia. A woman he's always going to have feelings for who was constantly threatening to rip out my guts if we made any steps towards a legitimate relationship.

Then there's Diana who I'm pretty sure has been his dream woman since they first sat down at their first JLA meeting - and you don't compete with Wonder.

Then on my end there is V.

Can you believe I forgot what it was to be treated with romantic gestures?  I could cry or get upset and not be called over emotional. To be able to trust that you could tell him your secrets, let him know that you had a past that had hurts too and he wouldn't use it against you. That he wouldn't tell you "Everyone has problems, it's no excuse for the way you behave."

To have a man that told you he loved you and meant it still eight hours later, twelve hours later, two weeks later?

It was being with V that made me realize I probably haven't been in love with Bruce for a very long time.

Have you read Gone with the Wind anon?

There is this quote when Scarlett realizes she isn't in love with Ashley, but more the idea of him. I think I loved Bruce, deeply at one point, but after a point maybe I just loved the idea of what he could bring me.

And even though we were no longer good for each other, even though it hurt to be with him, I chased him and tried to make him fit into this dream of mine, like a pair of clothes that were too small because I dreamed it so long I thought it was the only dream I could have.

"I don't care that much, as if I could ever care that much."

His words not mine.

Like a cold dose of water on my face. I woke up.

I have new dreams now.

And I love Bruce. I do. But a lot of people can't hear that and make the distinction that I love Bruce and I am not in love with Bruce.

Sounds like child abuse to me.