Sitting awake , canāt get the conversation out of my head. There are many turning points, or moments you look back on later and think āI wish I had done this, or done that.ā
Where time stands still and you get a knot in your chest, barely able to breathe. Wondering if you fucked it up too much this time, crying because of how much pain you have caused.
Can I write about you? Am I able to go into the essence that makes up this woman that I come home to? Sleep with every night?
No, I donāt know everything, Iāll admit that. I doubt I can come close to describing how amazing and wonderful you truly are. I do know I need to be better for the girl that gives me butterflies when she kisses me.
A rock of a woman that seems to get beaten, and pummeled by everything in life but still remains. You look at people and see the good in them. Your heart is so big you would give your clothes away if someone needed it. You get so beat by life it makes my day just to make you smile.
Your sense of justice and compassion speak volumes about the type of person you are. Filled with hopes of adventure, and a wild streak that takes you everywhere.
People call you sensitive but I donāt think you are anywhere near that. You give a damn. You actually feel your emotions, and others too while everyone else is oblivious and closed off. Yes, they make you feel like you are too much. No where close.
All you want in life is to be understood. To be heard. Growing up I know they didnāt listen. Didnāt care to hear how you are really feeling, even now at times.
I want to be that person, I want to see your eyes sparkle when you are so excited about something and canāt keep it in. When you get bubbly, and passionate over justice, and doing what is right in your heart.
I want to be the girlfriend you deserve. The one you share inner thoughts to, when no one else would listen. Want to know your hopes, dreams, and fears, but thatās on me. I know trust is hard for you, so many people have hurt you and the last thing you deserve is to feel like you are not enough because of my actions.
You are more than enough, you are everything. This wild, spitfire, caring, and so loving of a person. I just need to show you. You are a unicorn my love, and I wonāt let my actions unchanged out of carelessness and stupidity cause me to lose one of the greatest things to happen to me. I love you.
