Oct 14, 2021
feeling a bit less overwhelmingly crushed by my depression rn so I'm going to quickly try and respond to as many comments as I can while I can manage to hopefully be a bit better of a conversationalist.
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feeling a bit less overwhelmingly crushed by my depression rn so I'm going to quickly try and respond to as many comments as I can while I can manage to hopefully be a bit better of a conversationalist.
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hmm ive been super negative lately so heres some positives in my life :heart:
-i applied for a job and heard back from the manager asking me which days i could work so thats super promising
-i did well in my german class which im pretty proud of bc it was an accelerated course and i didnt have any background in the language
-my friends and i play tf2 together often and i always have a lot of fun c:
ive been depressed but i mean i have a lot of hope for the future at least and it isn’t all bad all the time
For the newest ask game; Red, Pink, Brown and Clear? ~M
Red: What type of writer’s block do you experience the most?
either "i don't know what's happening next" writer's block or just plain old depression :)
Pink: Which of your characters would become your best friend?
time to ramble about my ocs that no one cares about!!!
tbh i love them all very very much so i'd love to say all of them, but realistically it'd probably be saira or jordan—saira is just a cutie and she gets along with everyone, and jordan and i would probably end up as Hyperfixation Bros™
Brown: Do you have a set writing space? Or do you write everywhere?
nah i can write anywhere pretty much!! as long as there's a flat surface at hand i'm good to go :D
Clear: Do your characters control where the story goes or do you maintain control?
i maintain control, but control is an inaccurate word for the state of my writing process lol
thanks for the ask!!
an overlooked symptom or behavior related to depression is the inability to allow oneself to have good things or to be happy. you cannot allow yourself to have happy thoughts, to have hope, to believe in the future, because you feel guilty or scared if you do
there is such a spectrum of sadness that goes from hysterical agony to upset to bummed out to deflated to ennui to numb
and ppl dont realise that people who have depression tend to hover around the numb end of the spectrum of sadness rather than the more active feelings of sadness
like yeah we're unhappy but are we upset? not we're just siiiiggghhhhh
i mean thats how it feels in my case im someone who's always been very optimistic and peppy and happy and that seems to jee me on much better than i might otherwise be if i had a more pessimisitic outlook so i just end up in the more neutral side of things
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I feel like a hollowed out version of myself
Depression is bad today.
It feels like someone took all the things that made me, me, and scooped them out. they locked them away with a key. All my interests, my comforts, in a place where I can't go.
I just want someone to notice. That I'm not myself. That I'm different. That I'm hurting.
I tried to do things that i love. Reading. Coloring. Gaming. Movies. And they all feel so empty and pointless and gray. I just want to sleep. I just want to lay here.
I know this post is incredibly angsty but I gotta get the words out. It makes me feel better. Hope you understand.
me; doc why am i so depressed || angela; its the depression || (me??? using Jokes to make light of things in my canon?????? u heckin kno it) - tracer
i set my queue to 50 posts a day, so it should end around 10 am Thursday. i’m a bit fucked up right now and it hasn't been this bad since the summer when i threw everything away, so i’m going to take a break for a bit
if we’re mutuals, feel free to send me an ask with your snapchat if you want to talk. i don’t be answering any other messages