#depressing rant

(UK political vent ahead)

Imagine being stupid enough to vote to remove your own human rights and healthcare and the thought of any money being used ever to help anyone in your community just in case any of these things ever helped an immigrant.

Unbelievably stupid of people to fall for this, and to literally vote for the people who CAUSED this mess in the first place and can only make it worse, but of course, the right wing propaganda- and the money behind that propaganda- is strong, and the desire to scapegoat is strong.

Hoardes of people all across Europe and the world have been convinced that somehow immigration caused every social problem and is THE only issue worth caring about. Because it's the most convenient scapegoat to use to take away their own rights and benefits and weaken their societies. And there's huge money from billionaire oligarchs behind this, including Russian money.

So here I am, the last day of the year, the last day of the decade, the last New Years in my 20’s, alone. That is the word that has defined this decade for me...alone. I leave the 10’s with no memories of joyful friendships, no fun filled events or journeys with others through life. My 20’s was desolate, relentlessly lonely.

I have spent several New Years alone now, and each year I have told myself, tried to promise myself that that year was the last time. But I have continuously failed in changing my situation. It is hard! Getting out of loneliness is excruciatingly difficult! I really wanted to not spend this day alone, I tried to find somewhere to go, but no. I failed again. Loneliness is my demon and it reigns.

So I would like to absolutely not toast this year or decade but I hope that you all have had a better time than me, may you have lived joyously and gained experiences and relationships, don’t take it for granted.