Most people do not know that October is #spinabifidaawarenessmonth. And most people only know that I am weird. Different from them. That I walk funny.Most people do not know that I was born with SpinaBifida. Its made me compassionate in the face of bullies. Counter phobic in the hope that I can somehow keep it from defining me. And so very fearful in thinking of how I impacted my parents, in the prospect that I am less perfect than my sister. It made me awkward in talking to women. And It made me 100% certain that I would never have kids. I would gladly die before I made anyone else live like this. But then I met a good person. I fell in love. And down that aisle I went. Funny walk and all. I stalled for three years as my "Lady friend" (wife) wanted nothing more than to have a baby. I stalled, looking for a sign that never came. I could not find one case that took away my fear. Then it happened. That good person I fell in love with became pregnant. All I could do for nine months was hope and beg the universe. This is my daughter Lillian. She was born on October 6th 2015. Without Spina Bifida. I'm posting this to not only raise awareness. But to inspire hope. Maybe there is someone out there afraid like I was. Holding on to #hope.Looking for a sign.Well here you have it. I have Spina Bifida. But my daughter does not. It is possible. #Behappy. #Belucky. #Denyfear.
