#deerest diary

if someone forced me to take art and writing classes the way my parents used to do when i was #youngandgifted would that help or would it not matter

boyfriend going to be in another country 9hrs ahead for 2 weeks w no service and i can only text him thru whatsapp when he has wifi….ok 🩷

the idea of telling someone “i love you” in a romantic context ever again is actually terrifying me rn. sickening

actually no one’s been married to choso kamo the way i’m married to choso kamo ever before in the history of time

digital girl by jamie foxx makes me feel extreme sorrow

ermmm. what do i do if i’m not strong enough to win at love. i play to lose and i lose often. i give liberally and i have no regard for my dignity or pride and most of my pain comes from having to pretend i do. my heart will never walk away victorious because it refuses to harden

will there ever be a time where interacting with a man who wants you doesn’t make you feel incredibly empty and sad and hollow inside

is it rlly such a crime to say that maybe if people had more experience in the things they write fic about then maybe the immersion would be better …