#deepseeds

I just lover how this ice formed!!! I see a frozen rose 🌹

My tiny stuffy, Stubby, hand made for me by my daughter.

It’s part of everyone in some form. We may think it’s envy, possessiveness, pettiness; but jealousy has many forms. A giving heart can suddenly seem obsessive, or even clingy. A friend can seem like an enemy. Happiness can then feel elusive. Jealousy can sneak up on anyone but not everyone recognizes what it is until it’s too late. Hurt feelings, hurting someone you care, feeling betrayed, making someone feel like there’s no trust; so many reactions. Jealousy can lead to breaking….trust, friendship, happiness, companionship. I’m rediscovering jealousy; it’s makes me a not very nice person. I’d forgotten what jealousy can do. I have the strength to recognize my errors, apologize and move forward. I can only hope I am forgiven and not forgotten; but jealousy can and does break things. Somethings cannot be rebuilt. Somethings are simply painful lessons.

Do you ever wonder if you'll repeat your mistakes? Question whether you truly learned a lesson? Wonder do you really know a person? Ever feel like the rug has been pulled from right under you? Feel like you lost a friend? Feel like you're all alone? I believe myself lucky to have Family, Friends, People I can turn too. We all learn our lessons in different ways. We all respond in different fashion. We....I cling to the Hope to always find happiness. I have to remind myself; only you, yourself can bring Love or happiness to yourself. It is something you have to accept within. If it's not there, others can't truly give it to you. That seed needs to exist in order to grow. Our mistakes helps us to learn. Being lost or feeling alone, comes from not seeing what is around. Rejoice to be alive. Rejoice in what you have. Rejoice for choices your have. Rejoice because no one is truly alone. We just have to Love ourselves, happiness and Love will follow.

Why is it that someone says they want nothing beyond friendship then make mountains out of mole hills. Why do they push the friendship line then cry foul when they don’t get what they expect!! Why is it that it is made clear by both parties, friendship is the only thing involved yet the boundaries set aren’t enough!!!!! As a friend, I’ll discuss anything I’m comfortable with. I’ll joke around about anything. I’ll go with the flow if the conversation is flirty for fun (male or female). I’ll share who I am, even parts few know about. I can get curious but never ask for information not given freely or shared. I don’t repeat confidential disclosures. If you say the line is not crossed, then why try to say or do something that pushes those boundaries and not state you think more is wanted. Friendship is accepting someone for who they are and what they are. Good or bad, everyone has a little of both. Never judge. Accept. Why when response is similar in attitude, you cry foul. Its a Two way road and like any relationship, communication is key. Never assume or presume. That’s how one gets hurt or hurts others!!!!!