I like you but then again I don't. Maybe it's because I don't want to get hurt. Or I'm just tired of the routine. It's getting old. I go around, seeing so many cute guys and everything and it's nice being single. But when we're together it's a whole different story. I want you to be mines officially <3 I push you away, and you still held on but I know everybody has their limits. I don't know.
Fag, why am I suddenly missing you? Thinking of you non-stop. You're hurting my head. After that dream, after those talks, after those thoughts. I can't seem to stop missing you. I know that's bad because now I want to talk to you. &I know that's only going to lead me into getting hurt. Disappointment.
Budday, I fuckn miss you like you don't even know. No matter how much you piss me off I miss you. I miss you with me, julie, danniel, ainsley, and that fag. I miss how you were our jokester. How you irritate everyone but made us laugh. You were like the baby of the family <3 Now, you got a girlfriend everything's different. I'm happy for you no lie. But I'm also tired of how you're treating everyone including me. I told you, how I felt. You told me you were going to cry, that does nothing. You did nothing.I'm not going to stay up till 1 just to talk to you. I'm sorry, but make your girlfriend do that. You said, "Budday, I notice I'm losing you and our special bond." Wow, I'm surprise then do something about it. I'm really tired of being the one who does all the effort. I was their for you, why aren't you here? Am I such a bad friend that when I need someone you can't be here? /:
I don't know.
Bestfriend, one and only. I call other people "best friend." But it's like tumblr "best friend." or rutter "best friend", viet school "best friend." etc. It isn't just bestfriend. Because that's you and only you. I miss you. We barely talk nowadays. & I thought it was because you were 'busy.' but apparently you talk to her everyday, not your girlfriend I wouldn't mind but it's her. You know as much as I'm telling myself I don't care. I'd be fine without you. Truth is, I'm not. I miss you a lot. I tell myself it's whatever you don't care why should I? You care more about her anyways. I regret introducing you two. But I'm telling myself and others that because it hurts too much to admit it. You mean a lot to me best friend. I miss our deep talks. I miss summer talks. We would talk from 8ish, 9 till 5, 6ish in the morning. I would always end up with a big ass smile by the end of our talks. I miss that. I miss how you would always know what to say. I love how you can help me with my homework. I miss how whenever I have stress you tell me to go eat a banana and you'll be over to help. I truly miss you, I can't think right without you. You were one of the person who could talk sense into me, and guide me in the right direction. I remember for my birthday you walked over with a bowl of pomegranate and sang happy birthday <3 It was such a nice surprise. Then summer, me and you, abraham and tapenga spent the whole day together. I tell you things, that I can't tell others in a different point of view. It's hard to explain but, I simply miss you.
