okay wow hi where do i even start? first of all, i think today is now my new favorite day of the year (even more than timmy day, can you believe that?) because on this day, 29 years ago the universe got you and there’s no way you can convince me that this isn’t the best thing that’s ever happened to the universe. and i don’t think it was a coincidence that the universe gave you me essentially exactly 5 years later but you already know my theory about the universe making me just for you. 

i know i joke about making things about me a lot, but ever since we met everything has sorta revolved around you for me, hasn’t it? it probably seems like you’ve been wrapped around my finger all this time and maybe you have and i don’t say this as often -- but my entire world has been on your string since i awkwardly knocked on the door of that hotel room. i never really thought that having my life so wrapped around someone elses life would get me anywhere, i always thought that, at least while i was young, i had to do my own thing, i had to focus on myself and my career and being the best man that i could before i could give someone that much of me, but clearly you proved all of that wrong. looking back at 9 months ago, it’s so crazy to see where i ended up. i have a husband and a family and a beautiful home, but what you’ve given me and how you’ve changed my life is so much bigger than even those remarkably wonderful things. i never thought i’d be strong enough or grown up enough or put together enough to be a husband or a father at this age, and you can argue all you want but i think everyone knows that the only reason i’m able to do those things and figure them out without making an absolute mess is because of you. you’ve given me the best example of what it means to take care of people, what it means to handle your shit, what it means to come out alive, what it means to make ends meet even when it seems impossible, what it means to work hard, and what it means to love selflessly -- and it’s because of your example only that i’m confident enough to try and do all of those things for our family. 

but this isn’t about me, it’s about you and celebrating what you are. i know i’ve said this a million times but i’ll say it a million more and you can’t fuckin stop me!! but you’re truly the most wonderful person who i’ve ever met. everything about you just radiates warmth and i know that all you ever have to do is look at me and i’ll feel loved and warm and happy and cozy on the inside and home. you’re the most patient, understanding, kind, loving, selfless person in the world, and every day you treat me in a way that i truthfully didn’t even think it was possible to treat another person. i didn’t think it was possible for anyone to treat someone with so much care and in a way that made it constantly obvious of how much they love them, 24/7. i can’t imagine that there’s anyone in the world who could treat me even close to as well as you treat me, and i think thats probably why our life has been so easy and so happy for the past nine months. it’s because of you and how perfect you are to me. you’re the best lover, partner, and friend that anyone could ever have, and i’m so happy that my babies get to have you as a father. they’re so lucky. 

six months seems like such a short amount of time for all of the things we’ve done in that time period but at the same time i’ve never really had a relationship that’s lasted more than like three months without being like jk this is getting too serious and running away. in six months you’ve flipped my life entirely upside down and said fuck you to all of the things i imagined my life to look like but that’s okay because this life i have with you is even better than anything i could have dreamt up. every day when i wake up next to you, i know that no matter what happens that day or any other day, i’ll be okay because i have you. because of you my worst days arent so bad, my bad moods don’t last so long, and any uncertainty about the future that i probably should have at 23 years old is gone because i know there’s no way my life with you could be anything short of wonderful. i don’t say this often, but you’re truly my best friend in the world and because of that i’m not just in love and soft and blah blah, but i’m also so fucking excited every time you walk into a room or every time we go out and do something together or every time we just lay on the couch and watch a film. the way that you love and support me is so fierce and so big and i’m forever in awe of your ability to show me every single day that you’re not only crazy in love with me, but that you’re my biggest fan in the world and that everything i go into in my life, i’ll be doing it with the support of someone who truly believes that i can do anything. 

we both know that i can go on for like 15 paragraphs about how much i love you and about the ways that you make my life better, but instead i just want to thank you for everything you’ve done for me and for us over the past six months. you’ve taught me what it means to be truly loved and because of that i’ve learned how to love someone so insanely in a way that i didn’t think i was capable of, you’ve taught me how to listen, how to be patient and how to try and understand because despite all of the ways we’re the same; we are so truly different. you’ve taught me how to just calm the fuck down sometimes, you’ve taught me how to slow down and enjoy the small moments because now that i have you i appreciate the quiet times so much more and i’m not constantly waiting for the next big thing, you’ve taught me how to truly trust someone for the first time in my life, and you’ve taught me that even if i’m just some dumbass kid, i have a lot to be proud of. and i am proud, because when i look at you and i see the life we get to have, i’m proud. i’m proud of the life we’ve made and i’m proud of the things i’ve done to give us the things we have and the things i’ve done to get us here. 

i love you in a way that words can’t even really explain and i’m so proud of the vast difference in who you were six months ago to who you are now. i remember when we met and your life had seemingly fell apart and you weren’t doing much to make yourself happy again and i hardly even knew you but i felt so inclined to try and make things better, even if it just meant dragging you out of your hotel and making you see the world again. but look at you now.