#deenah

Daemon/Deenah is an obvious trans metaphor but I think of them also as a very strange-yet-effective disability metaphor, especially for progressive disabilities. Memory issues, jumbled thoughts and actions, etc. but just the way he despises his "old self" (Deenah) yet at the same time you can tell he wishes for her back. Just to experience a life without struggle. It's that feeling one experiences when they remember how much more able they used to be. Feels like an entirely different person. Deenah's all dressed up with her long trenchcoat and glasses and a cultivated aesthetic but her sprite is marred by pixels like the very thought of her has been corrupted by Daemon knowing what's to come. He wears a variation on her outfit, but it's so much harder to make out beneath layers of pixels - it's Daemon, in the end, but he hides from us players. He's uncomfortable knowing we can see right through him, pick out the turmoil. The sometimes-feeling of being trapped in a conversation with him, not so unlike how conversations feel nowadays - you end up going in circles just complaining about your problems or saying something that only makes sense in your head, not realising you make no sense until after you've spoken.

Why is there no fanart of D̶̢̳͖͖̲̮̝̠̱̗̮͒̉̇̀̑̉͜ẻ̸̱̬͓̟͈͑ė̷͙͎̣͚͖n̶̡̘͙͙̗͙̲̺̈́̋̓̋͜͜͝͝a̴̘̞̼̅̌͛̉́̓͂̄̕ḥ̶̛̤̹̹͇̣̭̼̼̤̬͇̟̇̓͐͆͋̇̍͐͆̽̐͑ where is my ẉ̵̤̫͓̈́ủ̴̢̨̮͍̼̺͉̦̙̪̞̪̌́̾̾̄ͅͅs̷̲̮̤̭͍͙͔̜̠͔̖̀̅̔̇̚͜͝b̶̨͚̺̻͈̙̰̫̰̩̞̣͉͌͜ͅa̸̯̫̖̓̑̇͛̀̽̚n̵͒̈́͛̾ͅf̷̢̹̰̦̟͖̝̞͕̝͔͕́̈́́̿̑͆͒̋̚̕͘͠͝e̵̡̯̞͎͖̬͇͒̔͗̆͌̍̚̚͠͠͠