i've been thinking about death quite a lot recently but not exactly in a . I want to die kinda mindset it is more like, i wonder about my death.. a lot
death is not something i fear ... infact it's likely something i've come into peace with. there are people who say you're going to die in 10 years due to global warning but the truth is; you can die to anything in 10 years.
i think death can be devastating, yes it can be absolutely heart breaking for others to deal with. but i think you should also acknowledge that person with honor and importance. it's normal to grieve, and it's normal to let things out. maybe that's also what makes us human, being able to feel the things we do.
and i wonder, i do wonder a lot. the reason why i think about my impact on others is because i think about the scenario where i'm gone. or, it could be also because i want to just. know my worth. feel like i am someone.
i know my worth and i know i'm loved. i think that's all i really wanted from a family that doesn't understand me.
