#dearest:

I have took a long, hard look at myself and decided that I hate who I was before. Zero absolutely ruined me, she destroyed my heart and I still have nightmares about her. I hate that I was so vulnerable to have her take advantage of me like that.

I'm glad I'm changing.

I'm going to bake for them and slit my wrists into it, so she has some of me in her! <3

I'm going to make them the safe foods they told me and slice pieces of my skin inside it! I can't stand not being inside their ribs. I can't handle not being on her mind 24/7. I can't take not being apart of them!

I love you, Fairy <3 <3 <3

I truly wish I had a darling. It's not fair to have nobody because of my horrific abandonment and avoidance issues. I want someone to love me. I want to obsess over somebody. I want! I want! I want! I want to feel something :<

Angel ♡⋆˙

I'm an admirer named Angel. I'm a doll in a multiple and prefer he/it/they pronouns. This is my virtual diary and vent framed as letters to those in my life.

I'm a yandere by reclamation as a BPD symptom holder and I'm working hard to become better.

I have ASD, BPD, DID, etc... If you don't like me, feel free to block me! Remember to take care of yourself <3

I changed a few things about the blog... I changed a little since last I fronted...

I'm not as angry as I was, now I'm just sad all the time. I want to die, or better: dissappear. I can't stop thinking about dying and cutting.

I still hate her.

I return like a moth to flame. I cannot stay away when it comes to her. She has broke me and I want to use my broken body to destroy her.

Her relationship is what I want. I want him to myself now that she has him. His lovely smile and amazing face. I want to ruin our friendship to ruin his relationship! I am so selfish. I cannot help it. She ruined me and I have in turn ruined myself and wish to prevent it from happening again. It is truly unfair how disgusting I am to myself.