#deadofwrite

lost in my own mind isolating myself from the world for the energy to have a conversation to those I hold so close has drained from my body like steaming hot bath water spiraling down the never-ending pipes the returning demons in my head bring nightmarish memories that continuously haunt me I wish I could forget them

i will never be enough i know, so please darling, just let me go. for being half loved may just be destroying my soul

you promised you were supposed to be the calm sea, the sandy beaches the warm sunset, my light house turns out, you lied you became the most horrific, most traumatizing, most dangerous storm with raging thunders and bling lightning but still I sit here in my little paddle boat ore in hand not so patiently waiting for better days, for this horrendous storm to finally pass.

just like one of those trashy tv shows we were just two young lovers truly, deeply, passionately in love but completely toxic for one another just wishing our love and nothing but could save us

now & forever plus a day